#holyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy shit. u know

[daturanerium]

sometimes i think about gideon nav standing up on a broken leg and fighting a lyctor alone, just to survive as long as possible. she knew there was no way out but she did it anyway to protect cam and harrow. jesus christ. that's her. she gives her all and never expects anything in return. i think about how she well and truly believed that the others were incapacitated and she was alone and then suddenly harrow was stepping up, dead on her feet, telling one of the emperor's fists and gestures to 'step off, bitch'. to her face. insanity! harrow said "you are not dying alone" and she meant it. harrowhark nonagesimus, who is more than herself--who is herself plus the 200 ninth house children, who is too expensive to die--harrow looked at gideon nav on the ground in front of a lyctor and said, you are worth it. you are worth fighting for, you are worth dying for. you are worth more than the future of my entire house. so much to the point where she was going to use herself as distraction bait to give gideon and cam an opening to leave. and gideon still believes harrow doesn't love her back. what the hell. what the hell.

#sorry i just. i think about that entire fight and feel a lot #harrow was like 'i need to rethink my priorities. quickly.' and by god she did! she CHOSE gideon! #like. there's still a Long way to go. but thinking about harrow choosing to throw away her entire house's future for gideon and cam is. #holyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy shit. u know? that was Everything to her. literally all she lived for. Until Now!!!! #oh man. ohhhh man. #i think about them and my brain just turns to mush #griddlehark #gideon the ninth #the locked tomb