#hopefully I won't end up going off to battle for years and missing their entire teen years

[basingstokemercury]

mem. if you write about things that are important to you don't be surprised when the story affects you emotionally.

#mostly positive I've been feeling the need to spend more time with my kid brothers #but also they're so much younger we'll almost certainly end up with me moving out and doing my own thing while they're still so small #and I can't see them every day #hopefully I won't end up going off to battle for years and missing their entire teen years #but it's still a more personally meaningful story than I expected when I thought oh hey what if Fairfax kills Leonard and Phoebe finds out #the thing that feels weird is writing from the perspective of the younger sibling here #because it's hard to know how mine feel about me and they're a bit young to express or understand that sort of thing #urgh okay off to continue grasping fruitlessly at sleep