#i STILL sometimes do calligraphy drills. it don't HELP

[inkskinned]

one of the many ways which life is so unfair and cruel to me is that i do not have cool spidery elegant handwriting . in heaven (where i will go after i reanimate reagan's corpse just to kill him again) everything i write will look like field notes from a lesbian dowager with a suspicious interest in poisonous botany . and between the maddened sapphic scrawlings in the margins (where i am writing poetry about birds and nuts) there will be little watercolor diagrams of flowers also. and oh gosh so fine these little flowers will be

#i write like a dad :/ #all caps. extremely neat #when i don't write like that it's fucking illegible it's useless #it looks like a middle school kid trying out their emo font #ps i have TRIED to practice. i spent all of middle and high school practicing !!! #you think this gay ass of mine paid ATTENTION in class? #i STILL sometimes do calligraphy drills. it don't HELP #the capital letters are the neatest / least annoying i get :x #also @ that one person. yeah i have arthritis and carpal tunnel lol im in constant pain #BUT NEVERTHELESS I DESIRE SPIDER FONT!!!