#i don't fandom post a lot on this blog bc i wanna avoid discourse but im balls deep in so many fandoms on a lot of side blogs

[writterings]

ngl the ao3 thing got me fucked because i've been getting more and more distrusting of the idea that things on the internet will always be accessible and i've been archiving media i like onto cds/dvds and stuff but i just haven't gotten around to downloading fics and i'm actually really upset about the idea of never being able to access certain stories again and the general fear that an online space of creativity would be lost. like the reports all say that it's being managed and the site will only be down for a few weeks at most but like STILL.

#i think this is also hitting me because i read this one fic that helped me break up with my most recent ex #and it wasn't a finished fic and the last chapter just came out and i didn't get a chance to read it yet #because i've been busy #so like. damn! #like i'm actually okay i'm just having some minor anxiety over this #i choose to believe everything will turn out fine but! yknow how anxiety works #i don't talk abt it a lot on here but fanfic was and is actually very formative to me and it's a great way of self expression to me 😅 #i don't fandom post a lot on this blog bc i wanna avoid discourse but im balls deep in so many fandoms on a lot of side blogs