#i don't have adhd but i have suspicious stuff like weird executive dysfunction flavoured laziness

[scienceoftheidiot]

If there was doubt for it, yes, I'm forgetful enough to forget to take meds that allow me to NOT feel like shit all day

And guess what ! I feel like shit !

And I hate myself because this is all and entirely my fault for forgetting to take them !!!! FUCK MY BRAIN

(ps no they are not ADHD meds because I don't have ADHD. Well the people I have seen don't think so, at least. They're BP meds. For hypertension. And I'm going to take them now even if I have a set time to take them because I need to work today and not just whine because my head is exploding and I'm shaking.)

When I was taking contraception I actually managed to find one that didn't ask for me to take a pill everyday at the same time because I just. Couldn't.

How am I supposed to do this with any other medication I just. I don't know.

Yes there is an alarm on my phone. I see the alarm, I cut it off because it annoys me, I do something else and I forget. Even if I tell myself to get up and take the pill immediately there's a big chance I will not because brain not in the mood.

I'm tired. I'm really tired.

#i don't have adhd but i have suspicious stuff like weird executive dysfunction flavoured laziness #and hyperfixations you might have noticed that #and i cannt do shit until last minute #me ? i'm convinced i have some kind of adhd or related stuff that is nicely counterbalanced by my anxiety #do you understand why my bp is so high #and the only reply i get is oh you should stop being so stressed all the time it will kill you look you have hypertension #not counting how i'm told to do sports #guys i ride horses 3 times a week for 2h each that's not counting all the walking i do to fetch them or when i walk the dog #or all the walking at work #sometimes i wish i'd just collapse for good and maybe someone will look into what the fuck is wrong with my body or brain #but i know with the state of our medical field i would probably be left to die so ! i'm good. i'm fine. i'm carrying on. #i just hate my damned brain thank you