#i don't mind that ppl cloak i'm not cishet and (even subconsciously) treat me accordingly it's just when it feels forced? and not genuine?

[sonego]

ppl not knowing i'm trans is so weird cause today my coworker pretty much explained first day of period pain to me and i was sitting there in her car just slow blinking not knowing what the fuck to say

#i said. nothing #i think i might've mmhmmh-ed maybe. not sure #i never know what to say when cis women tell me things i'm technically not “supposed to” know #idk how much empathy they want from a “man” or if they're just telling me to vent or idk just let it out #and it's also kinda. weird? bc i know even cis women who don't know i'm trans tell me more things than they tell “other” men #ok just read this keeping in mind ppl irl think i'm a man if they don't think i'm a woman that's why i say man lmao but #this coworker in particular is nice i like her but sometimes. i feel like she treats me as her like gay bestie lmao #idek if she knows i'm gay or suspects it probably yes but sometimes she's just a little weird #the first time i wore nail polish at work she kept asking me why i did it and giggling like ??? what's so funny 😭 #she told me “did you wear it bc (italian male celeb) does it?” girl what 😭😭 #non mi metto lo smalto perché se lo mette fedez be serious #and just other times she's been kinda uh. weird. and generally treating me like i'm a man but also not a man #idk fkfkdjwxkdbm it's difficult to explain but like #i don't mind that ppl cloak i'm not cishet and (even subconsciously) treat me accordingly it's just when it feels forced? and not genuine? #that it bothers me #but anyway *** TRUST ME I KNOW ABOUT FIRST DAY OF PERIOD PAIN............... i don't miss it #nico.txt