#id rather put myself in the ground because i just wouldn't show up

[andragoras-in-vanity]

my mum was helping me fill out disability forms and i told her she needed to sign the witness spot and she was like "i think you only need a witness if you're mentally incompetent"

and i just kinda stared at her.

#yes mother i am #that is why you're helping me fill this out #chronic pain honestly is so much easier to deal with than the mental fatigue fog executive dysfunction and general adhd #like i would work through the pain if it wasnt mentally unbearable to be doing work that isnt rewarding #but working full time? #id rather put myself in the ground because i just wouldn't show up #the same way it happened in school #just... wont do it #i cant rely on myself mentally more often than physically but i had to cite my fibro diagnosis on the forms since i dont have an official #adhd/anxiety/depression diagnosis #im going to have to pay for them and i have no clue how much itol be but i dont have the cash for it rn really