#if that makes sense. I'm angry that go/od o.mens made me realise it of all things

[feathertailedcentipede]

fuck you now I have to stay alive to see go/od omens s3

#sorry I know this is pretty out of nowhere #I haven't been doing very well if I'm honest #I'm only living for hrt atm. I'm not staying here for two decades without it #iis what I Was saying for the past few months. but I'm starting to miss things prematurely #if that makes sense. I'm angry that go/od o.mens made me realise it of all things #also yk. the guilt of potentially hurting all my friends forever and always #suicide. #sui ideation #suicidal ideation. #tw tags cus. tough subject #sry for putting this on tumblr I needed to vent in a nonpersonal way #I haven't really told anyone I was feeling like this #I think I'm feeling #relieved. excited. I get to spend more time with the things I love #oh god I'm having a moment excuse me (positive) #(complicated)