#im mentally preparing for the worse but i was so excited im like mourning the loss of whay could've been a half decenr day. but oh well

[ace-with--a-mace]

on another note im so fuckin miserable

#my bday js coming up and i was so excited to actually be able to do shit with mt friends #i never liked big parties or attentjon so i wanted to watch the fnaf movie w some friends and cut cake then go home #my aunt has been askin me forever wht i wanna do for my bday and my mom kept saying we're not celebrating- #-and that im lucky if i even get ppl saying the words 'happy bday' the day of. so. #and THEN she tells me we're goin out of state to do shit SHE wants to do on MY day and doesnr give me a choice #and deliberately picks shit that nobody wants to do and j know wjll make others miserable. so. #and THEN the only silver lining was i get to do my hair how i wanna and shes saying no im getting my hair straightened #which i hate because the heat and the smell and havinf a rando touch my hair is too much for me i literally cry in the chair #plus my hair has heat damage so i wanna avoid heat and she knows that but she doesnt care #she thinks just cuz she had a kid that she doesn't even ljke she can live through me. cancelinf my bday #im mentally preparing for the worse but i was so excited im like mourning the loss of whay could've been a half decenr day. but oh well #l speaks #shut up l #ranting in the tags because i can #hell is being a teenage girl born to black immigrant parents and being the eldest daughter of an eldest daughter