#it was only once a month but I couldn't skip awana!

[girlscience]

I always get a little jealous when I see teenagers at cons, I would have loved to be them 10 years ago

#first of all 😭😭😭 the fact 15 was ten years ago is crazy #but just. my parents love me but they very much do not understand my hobbies at all #and they got my sister into things because she liked sports and they understood that #I liked nerdy things and so... I got art class like once? #there was an anime club at the library but I couldn't go because it was on wednesday nights and we had church things #it was only once a month but I couldn't skip awana! #and literally no kids at church or in the homeschool group cared about this stuff #so I didn't have friends who liked it #idk. I am having a GREAT time now going to cons and buying so much art #and making cosplays and going to panels and staying up stupidly late #but there is always going to be a part of me that wishes I could have been one of the kids in the anime club #who made cosplay skits on youtube and terrorized the local anime cons #i think it's very much an instance of 'that kid would have been me if i had had friends who weren't bullies and parents who understood me'