#junkyu every time he makes a minor mistake at graciegrace: i'm so hot and sexy and capable <3

[hannjunkyu]

starden task one  /  han junkyu’s interview.

i. did you have any new year’s resolutions or general hopes and wishes for the new year? if so, what are they?

“hell yeah. 2021 is the year of opportunity. this year, i’m going to do something worth bragging about. whether it’s starting my own business or finally moving to the big city and making my debut, i’m not sure yet... but i’m going to be making big moves. you can take my word for it.”

ii. how exactly are you trying to / going to try to achieve your goals?

“right now, i’m studying for the ged exam ― maybe once i get that out of the way, talent agents will finally think i’m worth the risk. i also need to break past my mental barriers. i think i’m going to start doing, like, brain exercises. repeating things like i’m so hot and sexy and capable while i’m making my morning smoothies or whatever to start generating more confidence. which, i mean, i used to be confident; but being someone who peaked in high-school has a funny way of making you feel real dull. anyway, i’m gonna work on making my resume look better with educational stuff and work on confidence. we’ll see where it goes from there.”

iii. is it something you have wanted to do for a long time or was it more of a sudden idea?

“it’s something i’ve wanted to do for... as long as i can remember, really.”

iv. is there a specific reasoning to them?

“i want to shine. i guess i don’t talk about it as much as i used to, but i still want to be someone important. it’s not that i don’t like my life on the twin islands, it’s just... there’s gotta be more to life than this, you know? i want new experiences, new sights, new memories. i’m tired of the same old. tired of not being known for anything other than my sick money-sorting skills. does anyone on this island even know how good of a dancer i am? probably not. i want people to talk shit about me, but not because they know me personally and think i’m annoying. i want to hear whispers, like... oh shit! that’s han junkyu. he’s really something else. he shines brighter than anyone. but that’s kind of conceited of me, right? to have a dream like that’s bad enough, but to admit that that’s my dream’s even worse. but it used to feel like it was something i could do, anyway. conceited or not. now it feels... i don’t know. i guess it feels like i’m destined for the same mundane life that everyone else in a place like this will undoubtedly live. i want to get back to that powerful feeling, no matter what it takes.”

v. have you already learned something new this year? if so, what is it?

“you think i learn new things...? that’s so nice! (...) just kidding. of course i do. i’ve learned that ohio is also a place in the united states ― not just a japanese greeting! crazy, huh? i bet they’re a bunch of weebs.”

vi. is there anything you want to leave in 2020?

“nope, can’t say that there is...? i think that 2020 was a good year for me as far as, like, not regretting anything goes. i don’t think i had much personal growth, but it’s okay to be stagnant like that sometimes, you know. just vibing, feelin’ things out. there’s nothing overwhelmingly negative in my life that i’d like to leave in 2020, except, like... maybe my empty bank account. a bitch is broke. please commission me. i’ll paint you any anime girl you want.”

vii. is there anything you want others to leave in 2020?

“oh ― cringe culture, for sure. life is so short and we have to make the most of the time that we have, not waste it worrying about what everyone else is thinking. all that’s gonna do is drag you down, anyway. you want to wear that dress, but you’re worried that your neighbors won’t think you look good in it? honestly, who cares. wear it for yourself, not for everyone else. got some niche interest that no one else seems to be into? flaunt it! embrace it! say what you’re thinking, even if it’s fucking weird or you think people will put you down, saying you’re trying to be ‘quirky’ and ‘different’. on that note, let’s all reclaim the word quirky and stop thinking it’s a bad thing. life’s so fun if you make it fun. stop being embarrassed because of people who try to ruin it for everyone else. please. i’m begging.”

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