#like cutting open a pack of vitamins in such a way that it'll be easy for the other person to take it out

[zhongrin]

i want the kind of love my father has for my mother. my father, who massages my mom's feet (she has bad knees and has trouble walking) every night. my mother, who sometimes goes to sleep first, who's a heavy sleeper so she doesn't really wake up when he does this, yet my dad does it anyway while she's asleep. he would gently put her socks back when he was done and tuck her feet behind her blanket before even thinking of climbing up to their bed.

i want the kind of love my mother has for my father. my father, who can't chew too well because of his dentures. my mother, who would go miles and beyond to make sure all the dishes she cooks are soft enough, the meats tender, but still palatable for the whole household. one time when she was cooking, she had accidentally gotten second-degree burns all over the back of her palm from oil splashes. yet, she insisted on not laying off cooking the whole time it heals because "your dad won't eat if it's not my cooking," she said with a teasing grin.

perhaps love isn't all beautiful and won't last forever. but still i. i want this kind of love.

#i want love so deep it seeps into the most mundanest of things #like cutting open a pack of vitamins in such a way that it'll be easy for the other person to take it out #or the way they move your hand away from their pillow as quietly and as softly as possible with a scowl on their face #because yeah it's annoying and you're annoying. but also they love you so much they don't want to disturb your sleep #i want this kind of love but i fear i will never be worthy of it. or get to experience it myself #so imma just imagine all of these with zhongli hhsjdjsjdksdjlsjflsjd #i am so sappy rn no one perceive me #rin rambles