#memories and then you have a girl from a winery who wasn't raised kindly or fairly and that's it. the hag wasn't her fault. it shouldn't

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beau....ohhuuugh

#youre telling me this character that was originally supposed to have frat boy vibes didn't keep that vibe bc it was a front she had put on #to protect herself... ure saying asshole with a heart of gold over here... angry women supremacy. I think abt her so much all the time #she's The Character I can't look directly at bc. Well. day one when I watched cr and saw her I was like #oh yes this one I love her <3 I understand her <3 and by GOD do I understand her. too much. ow! #characters that scramble your brain #she's so smart and she's so angry and she was talked down to and ignored and treated like a burden for so long ohhh #she's not a burden. she made a show of shoving her way into tmn but they had always wanted her there #even when they fought. when she started shit or when someone else started shit and she spoke up #she's an extra perspective she's incredibly loyal she wants people to be safe and sane and she helps with that in her way #oh my god and she is so nonjudgemental. caleb told her his backstory in ep fuckin 18. that's SO early. and she gave him some shit for it #for a while but when it comes down to it she didn't tell the others and she didn't start a fight then and there #she cares. she's just not the most careful. but then she learns how to be. ohhhhhuggh #her character growth was her learning that she's respected and an equal and feeling less like a burden and more like a friend and getting #VALIDATED. being told by not only tmn but The Cobalt Fucking Soul that what had happened to her shouldnt have happened #I am going to. Die #also DEEPLY insane to me that it took as long as it did for her backstory stuff to come up not because I think it should have come up #sooner but because that's so thematically appropriate. you have sea gods and evil archmages and archfey cultists and yasha's missing #memories and then you have a girl from a winery who wasn't raised kindly or fairly and that's it. the hag wasn't her fault. it shouldn't #have been something she had to deal with. most of it is so mundane but that trauma is treated with the same seriousness as everything else #hbbngngnhngnnhnh...