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Meet Freckless

***TRIGGER WARNING: ABUSE OF A MINOR, HOMOPHOBIA, EATING DISORDERS AND ATTEMPTED SUICIDE.***

BASIC STATS:

Name: Maxwell Ross Nickname: Max, Maxine, Freckless (by Su: a combo of “freckled”, “reckless” and “mess”) Face claim: Jonathan Van Ness* Age: 30 Nationality: American Ethnicity: White Height: 6'2" Eyes: Brown Hair: Brown, long; usually wears some sort of beard Skin: lightly tanned, freckled Distinguishing features: Freckles everywhere the sun touches, and three tattoos: a semicolon behind his left ear, a large phoenix down his back and over part of his rib cage on his right side, and a watercolor style pride tattoo on his right hip Sexual/romantic orientation: Gay Hometown: small town, Ohio Current Residence: New York City

Occupation: Musician, personal chef, visual artist Talents/Skills: Drummer, vocalist, cooking, sculpting/3D art Parents: Mother deceased, father no longer involved in his life Siblings: None Relationship skills: Max is very outgoing and open. He's warm and friendly and generous with his affection once he's sure someone is receptive to it. He is an open book about a lot of things, very honest and brave about sharing things others might not. He is very much the sort of person to put on a happy face for the world whenever he’s capable, even if he's not happy, and there is a darker side to him and to his past that he only shares with a few. He becomes easily fearful and distrustful of anyone he gets a sense might be manipulative or controlling.

Style of Dress: However the fuck he feels like. He can go as casual as jeans and a t-shirt, but he likes to try new things and be experimental. He isn't afraid of showing skin or wearing clothes that might be considered "feminine". Mannerisms: Smiley, excitable, and friendly. Is touchy and affectionate once he knows someone isn't uncomfortable with that. Habits: Regular use: alcohol (casually, but occasionally in excess). Occasional use: marijuana. Hobbies: Writing music, cooking (especially new things, or for friends), yoga, training for and competing in triathlons, learning improv Disabilities: Depression, anxiety, some form of un-diagnosed eating disorder (mostly under control as an adult, but restrictive eating habits and over-exercising can resurface under high stress.)

Likes: Diet soda, cats, dancing, theatre, fashion, fiction podcasts, grocery shopping, bad movies (cult and b-horror movies, especially), buskers Dislikes: His body (even if he does his best to accept and be proud of it; he feels over-sized), the subway, silence, his father, judgmental/rude/controlling people

BIO:

SUPER-CONDENSED (TLDR) VERSION: Max’s mother died when he was young and he grew up with an abusive and homophobic father. Max tried from a young age to control the way he was, to make himself not “look gay”, and developed disordered eating in part as a coping mechanism. In high school, he found “his people”, and through their friendship and encouragement, Max started to find and accept himself for who he was. He met his best friend Su, and the two became close, starting a band together and often talking of moving away from the small town they lived in. Two years after high school, they did, and set off to pursue their dreams together. They’re now a hit on the indie music scene after ten years of hard work and starting to tour, and Max also sells his art and have a growing business as a healthy eating personal chef.

THIS MUN IS A WORDY FUCK AND COMPELLED BY SATAN TO TELL YOU EVERYTHING VERSION: Max was born to two very conservative parents in a small town in Ohio. He was an only child, after health complications prevented his parents from having another child, and was the apple of his mother's eye, even as he began to display characteristics of not being your "average" boy at a young age. His father was tough with him, and occasionally physically rough when he thought Max wasn't behaving like a boy should, but his mother acted as a buffer between the two when she could, even if she encouraged him to change his behavior in other ways. That buffer disappeared when Max's mother died unexpectedly of a heart attack when he was seven.

After that, his father began to drink more than he should and became increasingly abusive. Verbal abuse increased in addition to the "minor" physical abuse (smacking, slapping, etc.), but it was never enough to arouse the suspicions of anyone at school and Max never told anyone, thinking something was wrong with him. He took to music and art in elementary school, and his father mocked his love of art, but allowed the music lessons to continue. He eventually purchased Max a drum kit and lessons. For Max, it was an outlet for his aggression and pain, and he excelled at drums, learning quickly, but the abuse by his father only escalated into leaving bruises and scars where clothes would be sure to cover.

Max knew he was gay and "not like other boys" from about the age of nine, but when he got closer to his teen years, he tried what he could to fit in. He kept his hair short, and wore clothes he found boring and overtly masculine. His body began to change in ways he hated too, and a cycle of extremely controlled eating began. He grew compulsive about counting calories and exercising, even if it was mostly done secretly, and he developed tricks to get out of eating with other people. He learned to cook (and cook well, thanks to resources on the internet) mostly as a means to be as completely in control of what went into his body as he could. The abuse at the hands of his father let up for a while as he did his best to control everything about the way people saw him, but the internal pain was only amplified tenfold.

He joined the school band when he got to high school, and for the first time in his life, he met other openly gay boys. It was life changing to see how free and happy they were, and how their parents loved them regardless. Max secretly (briefly) dated a boy named Steven in his sophomore year who encouraged him to pick up his love of art again and join the student group for LGBT kids. Max did, and slowly began to see that there was nothing wrong with him. He became freer and more open with who he was when he was at school or away from home. He bought clothes that were brighter and more flamboyant on trips to the mall with friends, and brought them to school in his backpack to change into at the start of the day and out of before his dad picked him up. The growing personal acceptance made him less careful, though, and he started getting hit again when his father picked up on "that tone" in Max's voice, or when something "sissy" came out of his mouth.

In his junior year, Suvarna Singh transferred to his school from another neighboring town, and joined the band as a guitarist. She was from a slightly larger city, and the two of them bonded over their love of horror movies (though he admittedly liked the “bad” ones more that she did). She was weird and talented, and seemed to sense he was as lost as she was. It wasn't long before they were forming their own band and talking big dreams about getting out of Ohio and moving to the big city. In their senior year, when Max's father picked Max up from school earlier than he needed to one day, after losing his job and going on an afternoon bender, he found Max in pink short shorts making out with the flute player in the parking lot. His father beat him badly as soon as they were home, and he attempted suicide with alcohol and pills that night. The next day, after being released from the hospital, he moved in with Su and her family. He paid "rent" with healthy cooked meals for the whole family, and his father never tried to get him to come back home. The talks with Su about leaving town became more serious after that.

Their band (which featured an added guitarist and bassist who were only semi-stable members, the latter of which Su had a very volatile relationship with) played local clubs and coffee shops once they had a half decent set list. They were well liked by the kids in the community, and Max was happier than he'd ever been, when he wasn't helping Su wrestle her own demons. After high school, he took some cooking classes at the local college, started working full time in the restaurant he'd been doing part time work at for a while, and they poured most of their energy into writing new music and saving to move. It was two years later when they finally moved, and they left town with almost nothing to their name. They wound up initially sharing a single rented room with a bathroom and kitchen shared with other tenants on the top floor of a ten story walk up in the Bronx.

Max took restaurant work and they hustled to get whatever gigs they could find in the city, filling out their lineup with local talent. He moved up quickly from line cook to sous chef, and eventually with their combined income, they were able to move into a bigger place with their own kitchen and bathroom, and separate bedrooms in Brooklyn. All the rooms were roughly the size of a postage stamp, but over the years Max climbed a little higher on the pay scale and so did Su. They started getting booked at better paying gigs more regularly, and Max started getting more and more involved in the art scene, submitting his work to shows, and occasionally selling it, while Su's day job took an unexpected turn that put her in more demand. Years later they were moving again to a more comfortable place that afforded them a bigger kitchen, and Max with more opportunity to work on his own business of becoming a personal chef and building a client base full of people willing to invite a big, flamboyant gay man into their homes to cook for them.

Life in New York is always a struggle for the artsy types, but ten years after their initial move, Max and Su are still best friends, through ups and downs, and still living together as they keep trying to pursue their dreams together as a band, and in their own lives.

*While Max and Jonathan share a lot of similarities, Max is in not in any way based on or inspired by Jonatahan Van Ness. Jonathan just happened to be the perfect face claim in more ways than just appearance.

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