#my mother would tackle me to wash my mouth out with soap. ''respectfully.''

[wabblebees]

assigning me homework is cruel and unusual, actually

#my brain is fucked. literally why are u making me do this shit. its fucking ridiculous #complain complain whine complain #whine whine bitch moan complain whine #scream. tear hair out. consider running away to the mountains #realise im already in the mountains and i still have to do this shit #grrrRRAAAGH. #the assignment is to read 30 pages of our textbook and take notes in an Atrocious & Exceedingly Specific Format that my brain DOES NOT LIKE #it does not FUCKING COMPUTE. and its making me so frustrated that i cant even READ anymore #after exactly One Hour of reading my entire brain went NOPE WE'RE DONE HERE and now its been TWO hours #the whole point is so we have a ~reference book~ to look back at in the future when it may be relevant! but what that Actually means is #YOUR HOMEWORK IS TO REWRITE THE TEXTBOOKAND MAKE YOUR OWN ✨️EMOTIONAL CONNECTIONS✨️ TO THE TOPICS COVERED #sir. if i told u the ✨️emotional connections✨️ i am making to this textbook #my mother would tackle me to wash my mouth out with soap. ''respectfully.'' #the professor (derogatory)((<-the guy teaching isnt even technically a professor)) didnt even make up this assignment or the curriculum #he just got the job bc all of the other ACTUAL department faculty refused. bc this sucks ass. #he talks FOREVER abt some tangent & THEN is like 'hm. so we dont have time for the things i planned to do in class today. what do we do.' #WHY SHOULD WE KNOW. THATS YOUR JOB #and i like him (sort of.)((i at least want to be decent to him yanno?)) but this is fucking insane. i hate it here #id be so on board to read this textbook and learn this shit if i didnt have to take those GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKING NASTY-ASS NOTES. FUCK. #this shit is legitimately so interesting to me!! but knowing i have to do ALL THAT?? #makes my brain book it out the back of my skull like a fucking looney-toons skit. makes it go kablooey. leaves no trace but a dust cloud #thinking abt this assignment has been making my attention span so skittery that i havent been able to work on my OTHER homework Either #ugh. whatever #ill get over it & finish eventually. i just. the textbook is ALREADY oversimplifying so much #so im sitting here highlighting nearly fucking EVERYTHING. and then cant figure out what to actually take down as nOtEs #30 pages. of which im supposed to distill ''the 4-5 most important pieces of information from each page'' #meaning my shit in ~column a~ should have. AT L E A S T. 120 FUCKING BULLET POINTS??? #and THEN. im supposed to put an equivalent amount of ✨️personal connections✨️ in ~column FUCKING b~ #fuck me ig. fuck. #bee speaks