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#now do you wanna listen to me sing bel raggio lusinghier like a pro and my professor telling me i am sublime?'
widevibratobitch
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#coming to tumblr for the first time in three days just to bitch because i feel like shit <333
#sorry if i havent responded to your message i will as soon as i get a grip but rn im just too busy
#both with uni and with crying because a friend said a mean thing to me lol
#and because im tired of this new friendship already and tired of hearing this girl talking how great she is lol
#am i jealous? fuck yeah i am.
#and it's not like she's mean like straight up. cause like.
#when i say im really considering quitting and dropping out she tries to encourage me ig
#but then she follows it up with 'ofc *I* never had a problem with this and that because it always just came naturally to me teehee
#but yknow. dont give up uwu'
#and she keeps sending me recordings of her singing to tell her how good she is and always tells me how her teacher praises her
#and like. its cool. like i get it that its a nice feeling when you do something well and wanna share that joy with a friend
#but idk. i just think its kinda. well not mean but a litt
#*a little tone deaf? when ive just been telling her that im in a Bad Place rn and my voice isnt working as it should
#and my pianist is bullying me and i end up crying on almost every lesson
#and she hits me with a 'damn that sucks fuck that pianist dont give up tho <3
#now do you wanna listen to me sing bel raggio lusinghier like a pro and my professor telling me i am sublime?'
#also when i tell her that im sorry that im not very social and i just cannot stay and chat cause im having a horrible day today
#and really dont feel well and she's like 'yeah i havent noticed anything you're always like that... *side eye*' in a way that suggests
#im a horrible friend cause im not talking with her enough and yet again im disappointing her (aint that familiar lol)
#i just. idk. the last two-three weeks have been absolutely horrible to me. i cant get out of bed i havent done a single colorful make up
#in so long ive basically forgotten how to do that. and i loved doing fun make up looks that make people tell me i look like a clown.
#but i just dont have the energy to do anything more than put on a random tshirt and spray dry shampoo on my unwashed hair
#i dont even wear my rings anymore. ive stopped caring about being the pinkest slayest queerest looking bitch in the room cause i just. cant
#and even some casual friend of mine asked me yesterday if im okay cause they can see something is Not Right. but SHE not only doesnt notice
#anything. i have a feeling she feels like im disappoing and neglecting her because i cant be bothered to text with her 24/7
#like idk. maybe its just my imagination but i barely even feel like an actual person. more like just a homunculus made to trail after her
#and listen to her bragging about how pretty/talented/unbothered she is
#oh and also for her to keep dissing m/ozart lol like idk why it hurts me so bad but then ig its not that unusual to feel shitty
#when someone keeps talking shit about something you really love and are passionate about and making you feel like an idiot
#because you like it. because its stupid and boring and you're a simpleton for enjoying it instead of liking sth more 'ambitious'
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