#o wait nvm i just remembered thoughts are like that sometimes and trying to Control them doesn't work and it doesnt have to say anything

[crustaceanenjoyer]

I terrify myself sometimes 😅

#when ur a human being and u realise ur capable of violence 😨 #im scared i will lose control of myself and lash out in panic or that i will just turn into someone who enjoys hurting people 😬 #i cant do this man i hate putting myself in situations 💔 #me when i decide to hide myself away to shield away everyone and everything.. ok but this is definitely for everyones safety though #surely its not just me falling back on avoidance because thats what i do and it doesnt help anyone. no this is out of public safety concern. #maybe rigorous self sabotage as a way to feel in control of my life actually made me interpersonally stupid as fuck? #who would have thought.. how u treat some1... has consequences... including if that some1 is urself 😑😑😑😑 #i thimk maybe im being a pessimist rn bc maybe possibly its not like im like this 4ever now? #its just the fear of losing control of myself im genuinely upset abt violence im imagining myself committing #o wait nvm i just remembered thoughts are like that sometimes and trying to Control them doesn't work and it doesnt have to say anything #about ur Moral Character that u have ... Bad Thoughts i guess... love to remember very basic facts about psychology :)