#ooc : mun ;; please direct your attention to the tour guide

[gwinnetts]

// the timing of @partloss​​ ‘s ping... i’d been thinking about how much i missed writing, and missed everyone, while knowing that i don’t think i’m ready to come back yet because my brains are still just not in the right place for it

but since i decided to clear out some follows today (about half and half old accounts, and ppl i hadnt talked to in a while even before my hiatus) — i thought i’d do a little post just to say hi

just know im thinkin of yall, and hoping youre doing okay, and if anyone ever wants to reach out even just to touch base or throw rocks at my window, i’d really love it. and those of you who are still occasionally tagging me in memes and stuff... i see you, and it means a lot to me, and ilu ;_;

#( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide #// i'm starting to set up a general creativity+aesthetics blog? #// its mostly going to be a place for me to put the stuff i always reblog when i move blogs etc #// maybe put some new stuff #// reblog new aesthetics. etc #// i'm also starting to try discord rp properly #// bc i do miss rp #// so if youre interested in either of those things uh #// toss me a line

[gwinnetts-archive]

// dat slow activity multimuse feel. single muse blog version

#;; ok to reblog #ooc : mun ;; please direct your attention to the tour guide #aes : mun ;; i'm too busy trying to fly away #content : original ;; i’ll be reaching for the stars with you #// i've been so good at resisting this so far bbbbbuuuut #// me after the frog meme on courierdusters: I Will Not Post 'Original' Memes On My RP Blogs Ever Again #// me now: who's gonna stop me. you? #// ('original' bc they... arent... fresh memes at all...) #// (theyre just new posts...) #// (anyway) #// (i should go dig that one up and reblog it) #// (its been a while)

[windbrahmin]

// and now for something using my new ooc post and tag styles

#( AES. musing ) i hear those words like bombs in the distance #( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide #( mobile tbt. ) #( VERSE. sole survivor elle ) maybe i need the truth to bring me home again #( MUSE. edward deegan ) and may your efforts be your own

[gwinnetts]

// it’s my birthday!!

#( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide #// emerges from the depths to make this post and flip through my dash at a high speed #// tossing a couple of aesthetics into the queue as i go #// hi i exist! #// kind of! #// this past week has sucked! #// tell me happy things!

[gwinnetts]

// i done did it! i figured out why my brain was on fire all weekend! and just that clarity alone makes me feel so much better. i’m hoping this feeling of clarity and this bit of energy sticks

i looked at my drafts and saw that most everything is multipara, which normally is exactly my speed, but i think to get myself going again i’ll need stuff that’s on the shorter side — so, this is a starter call!

boop this heart (or comment and specify a muse) and i’ll write us up a nice, fresh, short starter, no longer than a paragraph or two!

(pls be aware that if we haven’t plotted before, and you don’t specify a muse, you mmmight not get anything. this isn’t a plotting call this time, since i want these to be quick and easy)

#( queue. ) #( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide #( RP. call ) i'm looking for baggage that goes with mine

[gwinnetts-archive]

// for you single muse blog folk. multimuse version

#;; ok to reblog #ooc : mun ;; please direct your attention to the tour guide #content : original ;; i’ll be reaching for the stars with you #// i see y'all too

[gwinnetts]

// just poppin’ on at too-early-in-the-morning to apologize for poofing entirely on everybody. i ended up stepping back because i was juggling a lot of stuff (not just tungl), more than i had the spoons to handle. i’m doing okay, i still exist, i’ve just been taking some time to chill and focus on some other things

so consider this post me making my unofficial hiatus an official one — as always, mutuals are welcome to come find me on discord, and for those anxious or worried about bothering me or etc, please know that i am always happy when people reach out, even just to check in

ilu all, i’ll be back at some point, and i hope everyone’s taking care <3

#( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide #( discord drop. ) #( OOC. psa ) this has been a test of the emergency broadcast system #// i'll queue this so it'll show up on ppl's dashes at a better hour

[gwinnetts]

// i love plotting very much and i feel blessed to have been doing so much of it lately

it makes me a very happy bean and i love each and every one of u

#( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide #// ok thats enough Feelings #// carry on

[gwinnetts]

// me: wow! i’m feeling better! brain: that’s bc we’re hyperfixating 😘😘😘 good luck trying to think about or do anything else! me: .......... hm,

#( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide

[gwinnetts]

// alright, i’ve been good and have kept myself on top of non-tumblr things for a few days, so it’s time to try to get some stuff done here too!

i’m gonna be diving into drafts after i do a couple of tag memes, and i’m around and my schedule is clear for tonight, so come talk to me (tumblr IM or discord)!

you’re also welcome to consider this a baby plotting call, especially if we haven’t interacted before, and even if i’m not currently following you back! 

recently i found myself getting a lil overwhelmed, so i unfollowed several blogs if we hadn’t had any interactions recently — no liked posts and little to no ooc contact was especially my focus there. no hard feelings for any of it, i just wanted to clean up the dash a lil for my anxiety. and there are some blogs i just plain haven’t followed back — again, no hard feelings, i’ve just been sticking to stuff i know i’m gonna be doing. but if you wanna reach out and see if we can figure something out, i’d be happy to talk! let’s plot!

#( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide

[gwinnetts]

// checking in again to say i’m doing a lot better now. the bad news is still bad news, but i figured out how to make it work for me. taking a couple of days with some friends affected by the thing also made a big difference, and while i’m still upset about the thing, i’m feeling positive and hopeful about the future now

i really appreciate everyone who reached out and left supportive comments <3 ilu all and i look forward to getting back to writing

#( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide #// it really means a lot to me ;a;

[gwinnetts]

// i feel very dramatic, but i just got hit with some bad news right after i woke up and it’s nothing serious, but i’m feeling really down about it. may be sparse for a bit while i process and recover. mutuals pls come catch me on disco

#( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide #( discord drop. )

[gwinnetts]

S.P.E.C.I.A.L. style: combining fnv/fo3 & fo4

// it occurs to me that i no longer have anywhere, like... an explanation of the approach i take to my characters’ SPECIAL scores. SO THIS IS ME DOING THAT

so. i’m sure everyone knows by now SPECIAL for NPCs is a hot mess in fallout 4. the numbers are all over the place, they don’t correlate with anything meaningful for the characters... they are, pretty much, purely there for the statistics. (except even then. cait’s strength is only 5, dogmeat’s is 4, maccready’s agility is 5 — the stats you’d THINK they’d need... they often don’t actually have?) it makes it very difficult to translate into narrative, or, at the very least, makes it no fun, because the numbers no longer mean anything, unlike in the older games

i, personally, also really like the premise that 10 represents peak ability. but... there are also some definite uses for characters having stats above 10, such as representing genius level IQs, superhuman strength (from cybernetics or FEV or mutations or take-your-pick), etc.

so........ i kind of take the two systems and make them shake hands for my purposes. here are the assumptions i use when setting up SPECIAL scores for my muses:

the numbers are centered around human ability, so super- or non-human or exceptional cases are represented in very high or very low numbers 

each score represents the character’s abilities when they’re at their best (because lbr, everyone has their off moments / days / etc.)

human “average” is represented by 5

peak human ability is represented by 10

any number above 10 is exceptional. so, a muse with an intelligence from 10 to 13 would be at a genius level. a muse with 14+ is a supergenius... etc.

minimum 1... probably a maximum of 20, which is like, absurd. 20 is the galaxy brain level. i personally will never touch anywhere near this number, but it’s there in theory

#( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide #( RP. headcanon ) so we'll pick back up on that on another page #( RP. information ) miles and miles on my bare feet #( ok to reblog. ) #// if you adopt this or have already adopted this from me #// you're welcome to take this post and run with it #// make your own additional notes etc #// i used intelligence as an example there #// but i think there are... multiple ways #// to statistically represent genius level #// perception and charisma could both do it too #// depending on the kind of smarts we're talking about #// but i guess that would be better served in another post?

[gwinnetts]

// some bits and bobs i’m considering for muses i want to write more of:

- i’ve noticed i have a hard time setting maccready up for a variety of interactions, which means i’m not writing him enough, which clearly needs to be fixed. what i’m thinking about doing is, like, in situations where there isn’t a specific sosu in play in an interaction or thread, instead going with the idea of having various nameless, faceless npcs hire him so he has someone to follow around to various settlements and, like, get out there more so he can meet more people in different factions. and, hell, maybe even coming up with ideas for different factions themselves to hire him. that way, we don’t have to assume one of my sosus just to get him interactions, which changes up the dynamic and while i do love to play with that kind of thing, it’s not always ideal

- i want to come up with a list of like, “quest concepts,” basically different jobs for edward deegan to be looking to hire people for. the downside is, just bartering for payment and explaining a job isn’t always prime interaction material, and i imagine would get repetitive real quick. i’m still kicking around a tin can trying to figure out how else to expand on the idea. edward hiring someone to come along with him while he takes care of something is an option, but it’s only one...

- i still think it’d be neat to pick up the “raider information network” concept from raider punk in fallout 76, give it to bellamy, and fucking RUN with it. it’d work great for both his standard verse and his raider verse — in the case of the former, it’d give him something more to do than just vaguely bumming around, and in the case of the latter, it gives the raider gang he’s leading a bit more definition and something more unique to them. it would also open up doors for more specific interaction ideas, since he’d basically turn into an information broker

- and i still want to, like, actually do threads with kyoko. but doing plotting calls always makes me a lil nervous, and i’ll feel especially bummed out if i don’t get any bites if i make a post specifically for her. so i may instead just... approach specific people for plotting? maybe?

- that’s something i want to get better at in general, bc i always kind of feel like i need permission to reach out to someone for plotting, which is what i use plotting calls for, really. i don’t wanna, like, add to someone’s load if they already feel like they have too many irons on the fire? i don’t wanna bother people fhdhfg. but also, sometimes there are blogs i want to interact with, so i wait for permission and wait for permission, and end up not doing anything about it...

#( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide #// just kinda talking out loud #// trying to condense some thoughts into something cohesive #// but i'd also love to hear what ppl think #// about any of this #// i've definitely gotten better about reaching out to ppl in general? #// i'm a shy bean but #// i'm trying to kick my ass bc i don't like sitting in a corner #// feeling bad bc no one reaches out to me when i don't reach out either #// that's something i can change! #// and have been changing! #// but... i still have a ways to go

[gwinnetts]

verses 2.0 complete!

// and now ALL of my pages have nice slides (or carrd.co) versions instead of my sad attempts at gdocs

come look at my freshly formatted verses information, now with more details!

#( OOC. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide #( OOC. psa ) this has been a test of the emergency broadcast system #// ugh its DONE #// I'M FREE #// NO MORE INFO PAGES FOR ME FOR A WHILE

[gwinnetts]

// my internet is down so pls bear with me on this shitty mobile post, but like

i am once again incredibly frustrated that fo4 forces your hand in destroying the institute. there are so many very logical reasons why thats a bad idea. there are so many alternatives that would make so much sense. but no: if you side against the institute, you have to destroy them. and there is very little that actually points towards that being an inevitability

unless youre doing a brotherhood ending, i guess. the brotherhood would want to destroy the institute regardless. but even for the railroad, who narratively dont actually have the forces or resources to storm the institute like they do in-game? like? why is this the most favorable option to further espionage, lying to shaun, waiting for him to die so you can take over, subtly killing shaun yourself to hurry up and take over--

why. why. why

#( mobile tbt. ) #( ooc. mun ) please direct your attention to the tour guide #// theres a reason i keep leaning towards divergent endings #// rather than compliant ones