#or ok . even if it's nawt love like . i don't tend to feel romantic attraction much . I've only ever truly felt attracted to like . 3 beings

[angeltism]

I keep realizing I often like the idea of being in love more than actually . . . being in love . No idea what this means but Hey Yeah that's a realization . I guess .

#➳ the fool speaks #I'm already arospec and it's INCREDIBLY hard for me to fall in love apparently #or ok . even if it's nawt love like . i don't tend to feel romantic attraction much . I've only ever truly felt attracted to like . 3 beings #meanwhile so many i know have already had actual ''i want to date uu'' attraction towards like . 10 other beings already ??? #like i get tiny crushes but they fade in a few days #I've only ever actually wanted to date 3 beings as I said . but i constantly want to date . #despite how rarely i actually feel attraction to others enough to actually . well . do that . #ithink tbis is a very fun combo of me being hyperromantic but also greyaromantic . great . #a fun side effect of this is it takes me a lot to leave relationships when they aren't working fjdjfjdjhd #bc i dislike the idea of being single to a probably-too-close degree to how much i dislike being in a relationship that makes me unhappy #. . . . . that makes my chest hurt a little #i stayed w two beings who made me have sobbing fits practically every day just cuz i love the idea of being in a relationship too much ._. #welp . all part of the Aqua Existence™ #anwyays who wanna fake date me so i don't feel alone but we both gradually fall for eachother as time goes on #but are both too scared to tell eachother bc it was just supposed to be a silly fake thing haha . #but then we eventually confess and- #ok shutting up i just needed to lighten up this somehow and annoying romantic fantasies kinda work for that . kinda .