#sigh. i dont exist in the real world yet. we'll see how my potential future engineering job ends up going lol

[thedeafprophet]

the other thing is like. i know its partially my self esteem and imposter syndrome stuff but i dont always feel like the quality of my art is consistent....and i feel bad at the concept of money being involved and things not being Perfect lmao

#i am a bundle of insecutiy masquearding under a loud and cheerful guise ajkdkdfkgkghj #like idk when im drawing other people things i can just go 'this is just for fun so its okay if its not perfect' #and like being real at least right now im a Full Time Engineering student #maybe after i graduate??? #but at the same time id feel bad because for so many people art is their Main Money source #and i dont want to be like. taking a space someone else might need??? #which i know that isnt how it works but this is how my mind views it lol #sigh. i dont exist in the real world yet. we'll see how my potential future engineering job ends up going lol #the prophet speaks