#so i feel like it's 3am and am tiiiired

[ssaalexblake]

13 never actually tells the fam who she is or her name, like, she never gets a ‘i’m the doctor’ moment with them, it happens off screen. And I could never quite lock down why I thought this happened? I saw some theories but nothing that really sold me on it. But like, the entire point in the end turns out that they all know exactly who she is without her ever having to tell them. Getting information out of her is like getting blood from a stone. What they know they worked out themselves. She never declares herself to them, and so, we never see her name herself. Her name IS a declaration. 

We do not see her ever tell them who she is, because she shows them. The point is Yaz knows without being told. So 13 never opens up about who she is, she never breathes a word about her world or her past beyond a few cornered words, or her newfound knowledge to anyone. But they knew her anyway, because she’s a whole complete person as she is. 

Honestly, I am Very glad Chibnall opened up and spoke about his adoption in an interview and how it spurred this story, because it was the final puzzle piece to this story for me. It’s an adoption story. It’s ‘i have a right to know my past and where I come from’. It’s ‘I have a right to look for this information and it should not be kept from me’. It’s also at the same time ‘I am and have always been, all the while while not knowing these things, a whole complete person’.  

It’s a declaration of personhood Without knowing your own past while also saying that being able to learn about said past is an unassailable right. 

In the end, it doesn’t actually matter what’s in that watch. It was 13′s past and her past to own only. Tecteun had no right to steal it like she stole the child. The doctor has the right to open it if they ever wish to, and That is the agency they needed. But she’s a whole person regardless. 

#dw shit #dw spoilers #no comments on the ins and outs of adoption #i wouldn't know #but chibs does apparently and has a right to talk here #but like... i read he said that and it all clicked for me #this is found family to the extreme. hi fam!!!! #this... is like only 1/5 of what i wanted to go into but it's the second 2am of the night for me rn!!! #so i feel like it's 3am and am tiiiired