#so much to noodle on w this show i'm spinning my wheels tbh

[icouldhyperfixatehim]

i really vibe with the reading that the game system is of tae myung ha's doing, and there's definitely loads to support that, but i find myself more and more interested in anonymousunbae, this grieving friend with the god-hand. it might be the catholic soup i was stewed in, but i think there's even basis to read him as a more literal god, heartbrokenly looking at a beloved creation and watching them crack, and then crafting another chance because to err is human (to forsake what was given) but to forgive is divine (to give it again).

but going back to the grieving friend with the god-hand read, which i'm moreso stuck on. these messages in bottles that show up on tae myung ha's phone, and he never actually tries to answer them, assumes they're a mistake and not for him. can you imagine how frustrating that must be for his sunbae? his sunbae who built debuffs into this game because maybe this time tae myung ha will ask someone for help - but again, he doesn't. he won't even let kyung hoon help him walk after falling down the stairs. and this grieving friend, if we imagine him as another full, emotionally reactive person (with an uncanny power) - what must he feel seeing tae myung ha repeat the same steps on the path that leads below the waterline. sunbae's own loss, his frustration, anger even, hopelessness, the hope that squeezes in through the finest crack in that hopelessness. there's benevolence in him creating his friend's second chance, but i do buy him as the game system. i can see informative pain in the mechanics that force tae myung ha's hand, the cruel ones that seem to hate and punish him. fuck you for leaving without saying goodbye and i hope the place you go to is kind to you can coexist. grief takes all comers. i wouldn't rule out a sunbae-gamedriver (rather than solely game-creator) read.

#so much to noodle on w this show i'm spinning my wheels tbh #there's so much interpretive room here i'm stretching out like a cat in a sun patch #love for love's sake #liomsa #liomsa: love for love's sake