#speaking of aoba being raised in a church he doesn't seem to believe in god or even in the afterlife

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Can't decide on whether or not Aoba’s “usually guys don't kiss other guys! That's weird!” lines are due to Aoba‘s overwhelming need to belong somewhere both due to his abandonment issues and his feelings of being outcast from his society (bullied for his feminine looks since he was a child) so he abdopted his homophobic society’s mindset of homosexuality being weird or shameful as a means to be more accepted OR if his whole “usually guys don't kiss other guys! are you playing for THAT team??” thing is due to the fact that, for the first 5-6 years of his life, he was raised in a church. Or it could just be internalized homophobia seeing as how much self hatred Aoba has within himself. Either way, I love picking apart his character and figuring out why certain things make him act this way or that way and how the way he thinks reflects his upbringing.

#dmmd #dramatical murder #aoba #aoba seragaki #tw internalized homophobia #tw church #tw internalized homophobia trope #speaking of aoba being raised in a church he doesn't seem to believe in god or even in the afterlife #which i find interesting. he sees death as something unknown but also as something final and concluding. #he doesn't put his faith in any god or religion. he just lives every day as if it's his last #I also wonder if that's why he felt so ashamed or scared when coming out to Tae in Noiz’s reconnect route #because although he doesn't believe in a higher being in the sky #he does still harbor a fear of being judged for what he's most likely been nurtured to believe is sinful for the first 5 years of his life #idk it's just something interesting to think about #he's not religious in the slightest but he is still afraid of being judged by what some may see as shameful or sinful