#the horrors really piled up fast lol i am at the end of this frayed rope and god willing i'll kill myself before I do something stupid

[samwisefamgee]

i have GOT to stop using reddit in the morning i want to fucking KILL someone

#its the withdrawls not the reddit lol #but man like three minutes of scrolling this morning and i wanna give some particular rich folk and politicians the shinzo abe special NOW #hey goodmornin goodlookin its me reddit did you want to be incited to radical action before breakfast? cause i gotchu #the horrors really piled up fast lol i am at the end of this frayed rope and god willing i'll kill myself before I do something stupid #but man am i a violently untreated mentally ill traumatized kid with waaayy too much unrestrained access to guns #is it weird that one of the reasons i havent shot myself while livin in this hell is cause grandpa would feel guilty for leavin guns out? #who could do that to an over 80 year old man. i mean cmon. ill be free when theyre all dead anyway i can wait right? #but yeah he should really lock those up before I take a trip across stateline #AGAIN its the withdrawls ill definitely be fine once i smoke weed cause thats for sure how this works #the deeper implications deeeefinitely wont have an impact on my longterm wellbeing its deeefinitely just withdrawls #ok its actually just bad but hey its sure easier to think less about all that n about dying when im baked enough to not go shitfuck insane