#the love isn't absolving it's just more fuel for the fire because the whole damn thing happens because they love each other

[dr3amofagame]

one of my favorite things abt c!awesamdream, whether you're talking abt the awkward tension of the relationship just strictly based on how it's portrayed in canon or if you extrapolate into directions that might be more romantic and/or sexual in nature, is 1) the love that existed and still exists 2) the ways that the two characters struggle to navigate through and around admissions of that care and love and how it's been poisoned and 3) the ways that it makes literally nothing better (and oftentimes, everything worse)

thinking about the very, very tense ways c!Dream tiptoed around the idea of betrayal in Daedalus. thinking about c!Sam offering the prison as a way of keeping Dream alive in the disc vault, when he was staring down a sword about to take his final life. (thinks about c!Dream knowing that c!Sam would keep him alive and creating the plan in the disc finale around this.) thinking about isolation and intimacy, the ways that dream begged for sam's attention and was denied it, the ways that sam kept dream for himself (shutting out even quackity, in the end.) thinks about sam telling dream he would torture him, kill him, and then keeping him alive--again, and again, and again. thinks about dream finding the man that had held him and tortured him and sold him to be torn apart day after day and how he let him out of hell, thinking about his tone as he cornered sam by a broken nether portal and put a pickaxe through his eye and thinking about bye sam.

thinking about old friends.

just, the love that exists in trying to remake a world for the dream of a time with friends that loved you, that you loved more than life. they had a house with the beds all pushed together in the corner and they fished for name tags on the roof. the love that exists in trying to fix something (someone) that has broken, that has gone wrong, that is not working the way it should. saving and being saved. they were the only ones in that prison for months at a time--how could they not love each other? how do you know someone that well and rely on them for everything (dream knew that sam was the one thing standing between himself and certain death. in many ways, dream was the same for sam) without loving them, the blood on their hands and between their teeth and all. there's no version of c!awesamdream that exists without the love between them and they can neither dismiss it nor acknowledge its existence and it just. sits there.

the entire prison arc happens because dream loves sam enough to trust him with his life and sam loves dream enough to never be willing to let him go like it drives me nuts

#c!awesamdream #dsmpshipping #i like to explore this in AUs too where they like actually for real fall in love and acknowledge it #and it's awesome because wow it literally just makes Everything worse #the love isn't absolving it's just more fuel for the fire because the whole damn thing happens because they love each other #and the love doesn't negate the hate . or anything that happens. or the fear. it's just something on top of all of that #anyway thinking about themb