#wearing clothes (see: fashion elitism lmaoo). having a body. not starving yourself. acting ''weird'' (see: autistic). etc.

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at this point i think i'm pissed off enough at allistics (and tbh other autistic people who also became bullies) that not only am i going to stop trying to mask, i'm going to intentionally crank up the autism and weirdness and "cringe" to repel anyone with those attitudes

#phase 1: be autistic and weird and cringe and free. not realize that people are making fun of you. #phase 2: lose friends. suffer abuse. finally realize that you've been bullied all your life. start to mask more and more and more #phase 3: try to be so so so normal and likable. mask so hard. #phase 4: realizing that masking ruined your life and happiness. get angry and start being weird and autistic on purpose to drive #away assholes. #presumably phase 5 will be no longer caring one way or another and just vibing with whoever vibes with you too. but i'm not there yet i'm #still pissed at people for caring about/mocking things like. showing excitement. not having expert level skill at a hobby/passion. #wearing clothes (see: fashion elitism lmaoo). having a body. not starving yourself. acting ''weird'' (see: autistic). etc. #bonding with others via mocking/bullying people is the single quickest turn off for me #was out with some people who unironically used ''nerd'' in a negative connotation and i checked out of that conversation so fast. that kind #shit is the only thing that makes me cringe hardcore. these same people were also mocking someone for their appearance like. #sorry to be the one to tell you that body hair exists. but by all means please continue draining 100% of your bank account to give CEOs of #various beauty industries their 20th mansion. please keep uncritically accepting these ideals they feed into your heads. by all means. have #fun. i'll be spending my money on things that make me happy & spending my time not being a jerk to people for the crime of existing. #(obvs this doesn't apply to people who internalized insecurities or who try to be aware of judgemental #attitudes they picked up on and are trying to challenge them. like it's the overall societal attitude i'm pissed at. and also ofc pissed #when people are intentionally mean or consistently try to defend bullying)