#where white people aren't ruled by the irrational fear of black and brown people that's been taught since this country was colonized

[homosociallyyours]

(cw for gun violence & racism mentions in tag post)

#was reading about the kid who got shot for ringing a white man's door bell #and feeling so angry bc i can't help thinking that white cultural demands perfection from black victims #oh a kid got shot? how were his grades? what extracurriculars did he do? #i would be just as sad and angry about this shit if this boy was a high school dropout #i would feel like screaming even if he had been ringing door bells as a prank instead of trying to pick up his siblings #i want to live in a world where children don't get shot #where white people aren't ruled by the irrational fear of black and brown people that's been taught since this country was colonized #and as always I'm sitting here looking at the situation & knowing that my whiteness keeps me at a distance from being like the victim here #as much as it repulses me to think about it-- i know I'm closer to the shooter #so many years of watching this violence unfold again and again is like staring at your guts spilling out of you #viscera and mess and rot all spilling out. #and just when you start to think you've made progress cleaning it up it all explodes out again #ugh. #sorry for the imagery it's just. this kid shouldn't have been shot and neither should trayvon martin or mike brown #or the countless others who have been turned into cardboard cutouts with lists of achievements and names we're supposed to keep saying #over and fucking over #i don't want to say any more names. bc i don't want there to BE anymore. #sorry i just had to get that all out