#yeah i'm back to realising why chrissy is so babygirl to me. i see some of my own struggles reflected in her in very roundabout ways

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waking up in the middle of the night, haunted (positive) by platonic hellcheer and Chrissy doing loads of gender exploration thoughts (the most self indulgent cathartic brainworms ever)

like Chrissy mostly keeps her usual outward presentation, but also tries some more ambiguous looking styles, tries different pronouns (sometimes he, other times they, or a combination of he/she/they etc.), finds out it's sometimes quite nice to go by Chris or C.C. instead of Chrissy, etc.

this ties in so well with my platonic hellcheer thoughts of Eddie taking her under his wing, their friendship developing, giving each other shelter and comfort in ways they both need, both of them going to some local metal/rock shows, Chrissy borrowing a couple band tees and accessories to blend into the crowd, finding out she kinda enjoys dressing like this on occasion actually. etc. the relief of being able to RELAX after years and years of always having to be perfect to an extremely unhealthy degree as dictated by family and peers and having to project a certain kind of image, play a certain kind of character. etc etc etc.

#yeah i'm back to realising why chrissy is so babygirl to me. i see some of my own struggles reflected in her in very roundabout ways #like i know it's a little different but still similar enough to feel a connection and just #hitting chrissy with my genderfuckery and discovering one's true self outside of expectations beam <333 #sitting here in my little corner playing with chrissy and eddie and such like precious barbie dolls in my mind <3 #ugh just the mental image of the both of them growing almost inseparable. mind reading level closeness #two peas in a pod style. they'd be such a terrifyingly strong duo together fr #honestly i could go on forever. rotating this whole thing in my mind for the rest of eternity.....