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writers and artists will go "this isn't good enough." my brother in christ, you're creating something new out of nothing and expressing yourself creatively. your productivity and unrealistic standards of perfection do not define you or the worth of your art. you're doing great.

#🥺

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I realized something a month or so ago

I feel so free when I wear a binder, so free when I’m alone and wear comfy clothes and do my makeup and wear a masculine scent, so free when I tell someone I use they/them

But I’ve been so fucking scared to actually make these feelings public or tell my family because, ultimately, I’m afraid that by not being a woman I will no longer be a daughter, no longer a sister, no longer be an aunt. Those are titles that mean the world to me and I don’t want to jeopardize my relationship with my family.

#didn’t mean to use this account for all my existential dread and doom spiralling sorry everyone

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is anyone else feeling stuck and waiting for something that will never come in order to start living or is it just me?

#I know what I’m waiting for #and I don’t have the courage

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240420 lonsdaleite in chiba kikiidawang (1,2)

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#adding this to photos-I-can-hear

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So, my spouse has been exploring his gender lately; he also just built himself a new laptop. Today he told me that he in an attempt to process some genderfeels through metaphor, he made a post on a trans forum along the lines of: "I'm a lifelong Windows user and I think I'm pretty good at it. I want to find out what Linux has to offer but I'm afraid I wouldn't be any good at it. And how do you choose the right Linux distro, anyway? Do you have to try them all?"

The responses, he said, were a mix of useful advice about feeling out your gender and useful advice about choosing a Linux distro.

I love trans people so much

#queer love is so beautiful what the fuck

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It's a lot healthier to go for a daily walk than to sign up for a gym membership you won't be using because you hate that kind of exercise. It's a lot healthier to eat a frozen meal than to skip a meal because you were too tired to cook something healthy. It's a lot healthier to take a quick shower than to procrastinate an elaborate routine for days. Don't aim so high that you won't be hitting anything!

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240405 XIUMIN_INB100 Twitter Update: ARENA HOMME+ CHINA Behind

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2024 XIUMIN BIRTHDAY FANMEETING FROZEN TIME Poster Behind

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190719 EXO Sehun at EXplOration in Seoul Day 1‬‬ © dear my spring do not edit, crop, or remove the watermark

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tw: mental health

I’m turning 25 on Monday.

It hit me about a month ago that I have officially lived a decade longer than I originally planned to. I used to think - used to promise myself - that I wouldn’t live past 16. I didn’t think it was worth it. I didn’t think… I was worth it.

I’m still not totally convinced, but my main motivation for continuing has been that it will be a hassle for my family to clean up whatever I leave behind. So if nothing else, I don’t want to be a nuisance.

Keeping my head down and doing my best to satisfy everyone has worked for a decade longer than I expected it to. I’ve found things I enjoy that help pass the time and I finally talked to my doctor for an AHDH diagnosis (and meds) last year. Maybe someday I’ll have the courage to actually live, not just exist. Until then, cheers to 25 trips around the sun and another decade of life.

#happy birthday to me

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When I say nonbinary people can look like anything I am aggressively including nonbinary people who have beards, body hair, and who are assumed to be cis guys, firstly because that’s also me and secondly because we’re always overlooked or subjected to cringe culture. Nonbinary doesn’t just mean skinny, pale and absent of gender signifiers.

[Don’t be an ass in the notes, I can turn off comments if I have to]

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me writing the worst paragraph of my life knowing that a sexier, more hydrated version of me will fix it later

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tiktok objectively sucks in a lot of ways but I will admit that getting to witness thousands of allegedly heterosexual young women have an identity crisis in real time after attending Olivia Rodrigo's Guts tour is both a) not something I'm seeing on tumblr and b) an absolutely magical experience

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Update: still disappointed :)

Two weeks into 2024 and I’m already disappointed in myself

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Sucks that "sleeping together" refers to sex. Sometimes a fella just wants to snooze with a pal.

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KAI 'Peaches' Prologue Film