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I love being a fictive who writes fanfiction of my source. Mainly because I can insert my memories into a fic, and everyone will praise me for having good characterization and creative ideas. It’s funny.

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touching grass isn’t enough i need to be the god of a brave new world much better than the last

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‘ur exactly like your source’ die die die die die die die die die

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How do I get Beyond back into the front so I don’t feel guilty for anything anymore? I hate that I wanna turn back to him after locking him out of front but also the thoughts are back and L isn’t here so…

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[Text: The host of this system greatly misses one of their alters.]

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Similarities between this world and my old one:

People think I’m perfect

There’s no justice

I’m being pressured to be like my father

A lot of law enforcement (FBI particularly) wants me to join them

Superiority complex

Too gay to function

Differences between this world and my old one:

I wasn’t born a man

I’m not smarter than everyone else

I don’t have friends

I don’t have the perfect body

I don’t have a stable family situation

I don’t have Sayu

In short: someone turn the body 18, I can’t do this shit

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"nightmares" -- lawlight angst comic

based off that one angst post i made

#ryuzaki

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@akazukin-bb

Our persecuter when they front:

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Fuck source separation, there’s no justice. What the actual fuck.

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after all those years I’m getting back

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I hate how connected I feel to my canon family. My dad is my dad and my mom is my mom. The people I live with aren’t. I still look for Sayu sometimes before I realize the younger siblings I could have had passed a long time ago. It sucks. It really sucks.

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prey to god

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@akazukin-bb

EVERYONE in-sys going: Don't do the thing don't do it don't do it...

Meanwhile that ONE GUY: Guys.... You won't believe what I did

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[Text: This introject is working on source separation, please be patient!]

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[Text: This introject struggles to be in a relationship outside of source relationships, but there are some exceptions.]

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If you experience moral ocd what’s your biggest concern

Fear that you’re a bigot

Fear that you have committed sin

Fear that you’ve hurt someone/something’s feelings

That you’re dirty

Other

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Feel free to add any you can think of this is by no means a good list

#fear that i’m capable of murder and that i’ll never be forgiven for things i’ve done and said #whoops