alowe2010

[alowe2010]

Mother's Day

For the past 2 years Mother's Day has been difficult. Mother's Day 2019 I found out I was pregnant. My husband and I were thrilled, we had been trying for a while. A week later I went to my OBGYN for my first ultrasound, it looked like twins. I was not completely surprised by that news, twins run in both my husband's mom and dad's family, and triplets run on my mother's side, but nothing fully prepares you for the actual telling of it being twins. My doctor ordered the routine blood work along with a follow up blood work two days later. In less than a week I went from having twins to nothing at all. That miscarriage broke both of us.

Doctor told us to avoid sex for a while. It wasn't that hard to do, I bled for what was close to three weeks with the miscarriage, and after that when we tried it was physically painful. Fast forward to November 2019, I'm late. I take a test, positive. I was excited but scared at the same time. With good reason, I miscarried once again. My doctor told me it was more than likely a chemical pregnancy that didn't fully attached. I'm not even sure, because I bleed for 4 weeks that time.

Two more years have went by now. Nothing, absolutely nothing. I changed my diet, I stopped the little bit of drinking I did do, I started prenatals, I started over the counter fertility medication. My husband started over the counter fertility medication. Nothing has worked.

I went back to my doctor right after Easter for my routine check up. I asked for his recommendations for next steps for us as we have not been successful for three years now. He wrote me a prescription for Clomid, so that is what we are starting now. Well, we are hoping to start it but we are currently waiting on insurance approval, if that will even happen since insurance companies could care less about fertility health unless it is sterilization.

Here is to another month of prayers. Another month of waiting. Another month of seeing friends get so easily what we have tried so hard for. Another month of family members asking when we are going to have children and having to laugh and say "I don't know, it will come in time."

I know this post is no cheerful. I need other women to know that they are not alone. I see you struggle. I am you. I pray for you even if you do not believe in my same kind of prayer. If you ever need just a stranger to complain to I am here. If you need someone to vent to, I am here. We can do this together an anonymous people, of if you need a face to a name we can do that to. Just do not suffer alone.

#mothers day #waiting on a rainbow #fertility journey #I am 1 in 4

[alowe2010]

Introductions

I guess I can start this new journey by introducing myself. I'm currently 26 years old. I married my high school sweetheart after graduating from college with my bachelors degree in mechanical engineering. Oddly enough after getting my degree in engineering I decided I wanted to become a math teacher and that is what I did. I spent almost 2 years teaching middle school special education math, half a year teaching middle school math in a resource setting (extra help classes), then I spent 2 months in a high school science classroom teaching, before I finally made it to my (almost) dream job of high school math.

Along the way I became a high school volleyball coach, a middle school cheerleading coach, middle school boys basketball coach, and a high school tennis coach. Coaching became my avenue to forget the outside world. I was a three sport athlete in school (volleyball, basketball, and tennis), it was how I tried to manage my depression, so I wanted to be that outlet for someone else. I may never get the chance to coach a championship team, but I will always be able to coach champions of character by being there for these students when they need a strong paternal figure that normally is not there or just a friend who can give tough love.

My husband and I have two dogs. We have a 5 year old Rat Terrier named Bandit and a 3 year old German Sheppard mix named Daisy. They are basically our kids for the moment. They love to play, they are super friendly, and LOVE to take long walks. They are best friends and we couldn't ask for much more from them (other than to possibly listen a little better.)

We do not have children yet, though we are hoping for them soon. We have had 2 miscarriages on our journey for children, but we are still hoping and praying for our rainbow after the storm.

I hope that those of you who decide to follow me on my journey find some sort of enjoyment or peace in my stories. I will share the struggles of my fertility journey, but I will also share the insane stories from my classroom and my practices. It will be nice to get everything out in the open.

[alowe2010]

New Adventures

As a way to try to deal with anxiety and being an extroverted introvert, I will be starting to use Tumblr to write about my adventures of being a high school math teacher, a coach to 4 sports, and documenting my husband and I’s journey through fertility. Many people may not read this, but I would love to be able to just get my thoughts and feelings out somewhere and if it helps someone along the way I am all for it. Here is to the start of a new journey in blogging.

#math teacher #volleyball coach #cheer coach #tennis coach #fertility journey

[alowe2010]

I have been reading Air and am obsessed. Can you recommend some of your favorite krumione/vikmione fics? It’s one of my favorite ships and I always look for new ones to read!

Hello lovely! 

Thank you so much, so glad you are enjoying!

My faves are below:

I said that faith is all I know (yes, I lied) By The Crownless Queen

This is a Vikmione fic that deserves so much more love. The premise is incredibly original but reader beware, this is not fluffy by any means.

The Three Rs the plot is canon-ish with a meeting between the pair after the war.

Hermione’s New Life again post-war, in this one Hermione is a Healer for the Quidditch League.

@summerisbittersweet has a wonderful story called Jolt, it’s a Drarry with a wonderful side of Hermione x Krum, reading this fic was the final push I needed to start working on Air, I love how LJ writes the World Cup as the beginning of their relationship.

@one-with-cinderella-shoes who writes under Tiny Slippers has a delightful collection of Vikmione Stories, with some wonderful one-shots.