andattheendshechoosetowalkaway

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Who told you: That the path of Paradise is paved with roses?

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This world is so temporary and you get reminded every time someone passes away.

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“I owe myself the biggest apology for putting up with what I didn’t deserve.”

— Unknown

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the hardest thing for me to say is “help”

it’s always hard for me to explain my situation. everytime.

abt this eyes. I am born with this kind of eyes. imperfect vision. I can’t really see in the dark. for the whole 20 years of my life, I’ve been fall, miss step, bleeding, slipped for many times. because of this insufficiency of light in my eyes.

cried? everytime and I cried so much in past. but I change with laughter. I pity myself so much, until I can’t even cry anymore.

I rarely open this to anyone. I don’t want to be a burden. to anyone. every night is a 50/50 of my life. I can anytime fall and accident.

because of His mercy and love, I am still alive. He sent me people who can hold and lead my hand until am safe.

it’s a lie if I don’t want to go and enjoy the darkness of the night. it’s a lie if I wouldn’t want to join every interesting programmes at night. I want it. so much.

but it takes a lot of courage in me to pretend that I can see at night. to pretend that I am okay. to pretend that everything is alright while what I feel inside is not more like who is someone is blind.

Rabb, thank you for protecting me, guiding me, looking after me for all this time. thank you for sending me your angels and good people to help me. rabb, please grant me the brightest eyes in Jannah. I don’t know whenever this weakness’s of me will remain for the rest of my life but, please give me strength and the best reward for my patience in this dunya, Rabb 🥺❤️

I always build my core in the day. I am the strongest, I am the bravest. but in the night, I am so afraid of dark. always pretending that I am find in front of people.

and yeah, that my strongest story. I don’t really know if there is anyone can accept me unconditionally for who I am. but who needs human approval right, when what I am looking for is His?

#dear diary #to my dearself #stay strong #you are amazing #alhamdulillah for everything

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self efficacy- how you believe in your ability

(Yakin Boleh)

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“I’m sorry to all the people I hurt while I was hurting.”

— Unknown

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emotional unstable and unavailable.

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sudah-sudah lah syai

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I’m done with chasing. not particularly ’chasing’, but more to giving chances and being open.

preparing myself the very best for someone who really deserves me. someone who I will make him the best of himself, support, respect and loving him for the rest of my life until jannah.

rabb, please not let this heart feel left out if there is any couple in front of me. for sure I know Your plan and time will be the most perfect for me and him.

rabb, please protect our heart from the harshness of dunya. make us your righteous servant that one day our love and taqwa will be beneficial for Your mankind ❤️

I leave it to You, Rabb ❤️

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Rabb, who ever is he, please make his heart always at ease and peace ❤️

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The right one will do it through the front door, he wouldn't hesitate or make excuses to make you his.

He will be sticking to his words and will give you love and everything in the halal way by coming for your hand in marriage.

#one fine day

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and somehow, she no longer know how to express what’s going on inside her. she afraid, she will no longer be able to express anything including love and feelings.

#i dont feel anything

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There is sweetness in a broken heart — it no longer yearns for the worldly life, but for the Hereafter.

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لم يكن حلما أن أكون معك. كانت صلاة ...

It wasn't a dream to be with you. It was a prayer...

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thank you.

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because I love you so much, I’ll let you go this time.

I am full of love for you. He knows.

for surely if you are mine and the one really the best for me, He’ll let us to unite one day.

take care.

#galaxy