i took a reading comprehension test and a math test today to see if i need to be placed in any classes, other than the one for the trade i'm entering. i took the reading comprehension test first, and was pretty confident in it, but i was like "eh, i might have passed, might not have. whatever." then i took the math test. didn't understand a single damn thing on it (i have literally never understood math, unless it has something to do with science or coding or some shit.) was the last one to finish, and was having an absolute meltdown by the time i was done. went to the person who had us take the test to give her some papers she needed back, and she goes "if it's any consolation, i've never seen someone get as high a score as you did on the reading test."
This Pride I hope that all of you never ever forget that no amount of sanitizing your sex life or sanding down of your LGBT edges will make bigots accept you. So, don’t debase yourself by capitulating an inch to them, especially in ways that throw your fellow community members under the bus.
when i got to the job corps campus three days ago, they tried to put me in the women's dorm. i stopped them and was like "i'm a trans man." and they immediately tried putting me in one of the two men's dorms instead, but the person supervising that one took a look at me, looked at the supervisor of the women's dorm and said "not this one. the other one. where the nerds are." so they brought me to the OTHER men's dorm. i was greeted by one of the coolest fucking people i've ever met, a transfemme nb person who brought me into their office and said "oh you'll fit right in here. yes this is the nerdiest dorm, but it's also absolutely full of fags." i've never respected someone so quickly.
i can't believe i'm claustrophobic but also afraid of really large rooms with tall ceilings as well. my dorm room is fucking massive and it's giving me so much anxiety. doesn't help that i have to sleep on the top bunk as well, being someone who is so scared of heights that i start shaking violently if i use a small step stool. fuck i'm just scared of everything, aren't i
i wish more people were taught "if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all." i think the world would be a much nicer place if people just kept their horrible thoughts to themselves