autienotes

[autienotes]

This really isn't the way I wanted to debut this tumblr... I was drawing something about lavender soap but the week took a different turn.

The opening post will be about my fear of wars, and how I never knew to react since I was a teenager and just studied about them. No, I'm not hyper-focused on wars, it's quite the opposite. I'm freaking out about something happening 10.000 miles away. To the point of vertigo with any quick movement I make. I've wondered if it's my cholesterol that's high due to the poor food I've been eating because of my food selectivity that's turning worse, but it's not (I eat in such small portions). How am I supposed to get on with my life while something like this happens? At the same time I feel so useless because I have no conditions even to take care of my pets and eat properly. And so I end up trapped in a spiral of mental suffering that will end up making me even sicker.

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