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I love Hideya Tawada and Keisuke Ueda! They are so adorable and are amazing actors! I would love to meet them.

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My brother never once cared about my mental health and I am to the point where my existence doesn't matter and that I am not wanted. I can't do this no more. He isn't the brother I remember. His wife well ex wife made him the most angriest man ever.

I don't want to exist anymore. I wish I never did. My pain, my mental health and my depression have gotten so much worse that I feel like life isn't worth living anymore. Why must my brother push me to the point where I am about to explode.

That Encanto song Surface Pressure is basically how I feel. I am nothing but a burden to them. I am a failure. I never make them happy. I am unwanted, unloved and unhappy but I cannot leave because my brother and his now ex wife treat her horribly too.

I don't understand how the little boy I once helped my mom with and loved is now this disrespectful, rude, horrible, angry man who lashes out on us to the point where I want to end my existence and go be with my dead mom.

I get it my father left and then in 2009 I left but that doesn't mean you have to treat me(an autistic girl with severe depression) like I am crap. I give you my money to pay rent and this is house you treat me. Pushing me to the point where I don't want to live anymore. The same thing our mother did.

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I am gonna miss Once Upon A Time, the cast, crew and creators. It was an inspiring show to everyone who watched it. Its hard to know that it is over and to know that it wont be coming back kills me. Such an inspiration to me. GOODBYE ONCE UPON A TIME. 

#goodbye once upon a time #captainswan #captainhook

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Not many Oncers like the new cast of Season 7 but I do. Actually I love Season 7 and the cast. Most fans want the show cancelled or they say some rude things about the show, creators and cast and it's heartbreaking to see all the rude words. Well I am gonna say something nice. I love the cast, creators and the show. The show is an inspiration to me. I have become a different person because of OUAT. Thank you for making an amazing show and having an amazing cast that had an impact on me.

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Losing someone you have a crush on

Recently I met two guys who are friends with my roommate and they have been hanging out at my house for about 2-3 weeks. One of them named Teddy likes me or said that he did(He said it to my roommate and his friend Matt). I was told that he liked me and that he wanted to get to know me better to see where it leads. Well I liked him too and wanted to do the same but every time I tried to get to know him he would be on his cellphone or being shy. 

When I was able to talk to him, he would say that he never said that he liked me to anyone and that he liked African American women which I dont have a problem with African Americans at all. What did hurt me was I thought he was joking. I thought that he was just saying that to see what I would say. Anyways a few nights ago, Teddy and I got drunk or slightly drunk or maybe I was the only one drunk; anyways we were making out on the chair and I told him that I like him alot and that I was in love with him-remember I was drunk and so was he-and he even told me that he liked me but he was more into African American women than me. 

I went to bed that night and had a nightmare that I was losing him as a friend and that I was apologizing to him to keep him as a friend. It woke me up to where now my heart sinks every time I think about him. Anyways he told me that he didnt remember any of what had happened the night we were drunk and that he still only into African American women. His friend Matt on the other hand says that he wasnt drunk and that he remembered all of it. Now Teddy wont stay at my house when my roommate leaves. I mean I dont mind it but it hurts to know that he lied to the people that told me that he told them that he liked me alot. I cant even look at him without feeling my heart breaking inside. I know rejection and what not happens to alot of people but for me its the worse thing because of my aspergers. Now I feel like I cant trust men anymore.

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"Nothing like true love to keep you grounded and good. Always trust each other and stick by each other sides through everything. No matter what is going on." @jenmorrisonlive and @colinodonoghue1 I made these edits for ya both to show my appreciation. 😁❤😄 Hope you like them.

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6 was scared of 7 because 7, 8 ,9 but why did 7 eat 9?

Because you’re supposed to eat 3 squared meals a day.

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Reblog if you 100% okay with a transgender person correcting you if you accidentally misgender them or use their dead name.

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Killian Jones/Colin O’Donoghue

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Depression Sucks especially when its Severe Depression

So I am going through alot lately. My new puppy now needs a new home because of the fact that he has become food aggressive and what not towards my other two dogs so my father is making me get him a new home. I dont think its fair to give up one dog and keep all the other animals. So it has triggered my severe depression.

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I’m sorry but I could just talk about that scene forever, so i’m going to talk about it forever because I have been waiting for so fucking long.

Ever since 3x12 when they drank rum in angsty silence in New York i’ve imagined one of them being backed the fuck up onto a kitchen table in a blaze of needy passion and last night I got it. 

I mean is it creepy to recognise that there were two different takes being used in that scene? You’ve got one that’s slightly calm and deep and sensual, and the other take is frenzied, deeper and running on lust adrenaline, both mixed together to give us something hotter and sexier than we could ever have imagined being aired on ABC- just bless. Bless.

Neither one can get enough! I mean they’ve probably been at it all night, glad to finally be back in the same realm and taking full fucking advantage of having the house to themselves, and they probably went one round already before getting out of bed, but homeboy’s morning wood is not sated today. 

And Emma’s just like “yes I can get used to this, this is my life from now on.  Morning, mid and afternoon sex on every available surface with no interruptions hallelu”

And he’s reminding her of JUST WHAT THEY WERE UP TO, mister “i’m not talking about the pancakes” making Emma bite her lip- we know what you were talking about, Sir. And Emma’s remembering what he’s talking about. Heck, she’s probably still got the beard burn downstairs to add to the reminiscing. 

BECAUSE THIS IS IT. THIS IS THEIR ‘HONEYMOON PHASE’ RIGHT HERE. FINALLY VISIBLE FOR THE WORLD TO SEE.

And that poor fucking pan is burning away empty on the stove. Sorry Mr pan, your scorching levels do not come close to the other fire being cooked up on this morn.

AND ITS JUST. SO. ON!

She’s backing him up, setting astride his right thigh, and I swear when he arches up and her hands go lower, it looks like she’s releasing his shirt and he’s all but ready to let her undress him like “unwrap me like one of your french girls, Swan.”

And then Snow arrives and that poor guy’s blueberries have gone a shade darker.

But he’s not fucking hiding his irritation though, nope, he’s all “You’re the one that decided to use that unnecessary ‘emergency key’ for non emergencies. I refuse to hide my discomfort in my own home.” because even though he loves the Charming’s they’re always bloody there!

And his exit! His exit cracks me the fuck up! 

The way he waddles past Snow like “Aye, i’m throbbing and uncomfortable, what of it?” cos is there even any point in trying to pretend he’s not annoyed and erect? 

Killian Jones doesn’t do subtle (sidenote: he’s totally the type to strut around nekkid if the feeling strikes him and blast anyone who objects with “where else am I supposed to feel free if not in my own home?”)

And poor mama Snow. Directing her eyes to the heavens like “it’s bad enough I have to see things i’m not meant to on a regular day, I do NOT want to see it when it’s ready for business too.” and probably thankful David isn’t with her cos her daughter would be marrying a eunuch by the end of the day.

And Emma’s left to do damage control while hubby limps off to have a sad stroke in the shower and IT WAS JUST THE BEST FUCKING SCENE EVER, OKAY?

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reblog this if you actually like following me.

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Reblog if you utterly and without hesitation support gay rights

It’ll mean a lot to my friend, who’s having a tough time with bullies lately.

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