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didn't get diagnosed because my parents forgot to get all the forms filled

now I'm scared i won't get accommodations

#actually autistic #actually audhd #autism

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they'll hate us anyway,

I get this a lot as being a weird mix of agender and a trans man that makes 0 logical sense to anyone else

but im still expected to allow people to talk over me? I've been told to let trans women speak for me because they're "more opressed" or that I have it lucky? I don't, I fucking don't,

trans women do expierence more violent crime, but trans men expierence more sexual assault and abuse [about 54%]

it's not oppression Olympics, we're two sides of a shape, as are our gnc siblings, we should be SIDING WITH EACH OTHER, we should help each other speak for ourselves and what we expierence .

and to those who think that trans men don't expierence misogyny and we miraculously immediately past at the start: go fuck yourself

I'll be loud about it, I'm going to stand up for myself

ive never understood the whole "dont say/do that, the transphobes will use it as a weapon against us!" thing. why do we need to be palatable to the people who hate us all anyway?

why would i give a fuck if someone calls themselves a transsexual or a transvestite or tranny or whatever. why would i care if someone has a unique relationship with their gender and doesnt fit into acceptable binaries. why would i care if someone doesnt want to look cis at the end of their transition. conforming to their standards of what a trans person "should be" wont make them accept us. we are all in danger, we do not need to be thrown under the bus by our own community in favor of the horrible people you should not be pleasing.

#to quote someone: sure go tell me about your 2 years of expierencing misogyny to silence my 21 years #cw sexism #cw sa #cw hate crime #cw transphobia #cw transphobes

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getting my autism assesment in like 40 minutes, I'm really nervous sbrjakgnakrn

#actually autistic #actually audhd #autism

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ANOTHER AUTISTIC KAZ BREKKER TRUTHER ‼️‼️ to add a bit because I love this idea sm

- kaz hyperanalysing everyone because spotting things like spotting lying and malicious intent never came naturally until it was a life or death situation

- his plans being very step by step and factoring everything in, but never being able to get that plan across properly because it works in his mind but not when he says it out loud so he simply stopped giving away all the details

- kaz tapping his cane against the ground or a desk as a stim,

-kaz who's aware of every single noise and changes in an environment, but that didn't come from survival he's just always been like that and it just so happens to be useful now

-kaz who when he decides he's doing something, there's no way to get him to change his mind or plans unless absolutely necessary

Kaz Brekker, An Honest Man

Little Kaz Rietveld could never tell a lie, much to the dismay of his elder brother. Everytime they were caught red-handed, Kaz wouldn’t even try to lie his way out of it. His father praised him for it, and so did Jordie, even if he disliked all the times they’d gotten in trouble. Lying felt wrong, it felt bad. It made his stomach twist and his palms sweat. He didn’t like lying.

Acting was different from lying. That’s what he told Jordie, when he began to take an interest in the street magicians. It wasn’t really lying, when the magician played tricks and put on a show. And the actors at the Komedie Brute weren’t lying either.

When Kaz Rietveld was dead and buried, and Kaz Brekker took his place, he still couldn’t bring himself to lie. And he was always able to justify every lie he did tell, because acting wasn’t lying, and Dirtyhands was a showman. Kaz Brekker was honest to his word and kept any deal struck with him. He never lied, simply left out certain details. Not telling the whole truth wasn’t exactly lying. Jordie had told him that, when Kaz confronted him one day for some simple lie he’d told him.

Perhaps, in that way, Kaz Rietveld had never really gone away. After all, Kaz Brekker was a half-truth. Only the Brekker part was a lie.

#six of crows #ive never met someone who shared the same headcanon #projecting my ass here #i dont know tumblr etiquette so i wasnt sure if it was supposed to go in tags or not #i got a bit over excited ngl

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mmmm got new orthotics

comfy but uncomfortable at the same time, like once I get used to them they'll be great

they also fit with my boots that stop me from rolling my ankles 24/7 :))))

And they don't trigger my sensory issues ‼️‼️‼️

#actually autistic #autism #invisible disability #flat foot #orthotics #physically disabled #actually disabled

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don't reveal my plans shh

both your ratio and adventurine are gender goals

I'm consuming them for my HRT 🫶

quite the theme of purple wise scholars you have going on, autistic gale dekarios

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have a crappy argenthill doddle

idk why ita sideways , also I did this in like 5 minutes,

they're t4t in my brain ok, they're both gender goals to me </3

#hsr argenti #argenti #boothill >:) #boothill #argenthill #guns n roses hsr

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straweb

The Strawberries I started from seeds

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shout out to autistic people with obscure special interests without enough information to info dump about, shout out to autistic people with dark or 'creepy' special interests, shout out to autistic people who can't info dump due to memory issues, shout out to autistic people who can't info dump because they struggle with talking/communicating , shout out to autistic people who don't have stereotypical special interest, shoutout to autistic people with multiple special interests, shoutout to autistic people who have "childish" special interests , shout out to autistic people whose special interests don't fit the socially acceptable view of special interests

#actually autistic #actually audhd #autism #actually adhd #invisible disability #im so many of these #“hey can i info dump?” [forgets how to talk]

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I feel like I'm faking tics because I get a feeling where I need to violently snap my neck into my shoulder repeatedly or its uncomfortable-- sometimes it just happens

sometim3s I can't get the shivery feeling out and it's ew

#actually autistic #i domt know what causes it but at this point its probably rekated

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ran out of today's words but im supposed to be going out with friends soon :[ and I'm not good at using aac at all because I don't like it

#actually semiverbal #its not a verbal shutdown it vibes differently #maube ill just keep using google translaye #i dont like it tho #actually semi speaking

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I don't have one of my orthotics in because I lost it and its so sore

not actually sore just

walking is hard and my leg feels numb and my foot won't walk

#invisible disability #flat foot #idk the official term #are orthotics mobility aids? i literally can't walk more than 100m without them #even that bit is in pain

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Hey, so I've been scrolling your blog today and sorry if you've answered this before, but you mentioned you don't want people to say "going nonverbal." So what exactly do you propose that we say? I can't think of an alternative except "going nonspeaking" maybe which would just be the same thing. "Becoming mute?" Like what exactly are we supposed to say? It's not exactly a thing I can just avoid describing. /gen

Hello! So nonverbal is an actual diagnosis in some places. However, not everyone that’s nonverbal has autism. There are nonverbal people with cerebral palsy, nonverbal people with apraxia, etc etc. I think that verbal people shouldn’t be using it because not only do they not get what’d it’s like to be actually nonverbal, but they’re taking a term from a whole community. It’s the same with any other term. People who have migraines that cause them to have trouble seeing shouldn’t call themselves blind or VI. You know what I mean? Nonverbal was meant for people who can’t talk or talk VERY VERY little. And the autism community just kinda…stole the term. Why? I have no idea.

There are alternatives. Such as speech loss episodes, speech loss, verbal shutdown, etc.

Verbal people will never get what it’s like to rely solely on other people or a device to speak for them. Verbal people will never face the ableism we face. Verbal people will never understand those things, they aren’t apart of the community. The nonverbal community IS a community, with different experiences, different people, different things they face. That’s why they shouldn’t use it. Nonverbal people deserve to be able to go onto the internet and see people like them without seeing verbal people use their word. They deserve to go onto social media and talk about their experiences without people saying “oh I get what that’s like because SOMETIMES I’m unable to speak”. Because they don’t get it.

I hope this helps! Have a lovely day.

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do any artists (specifically disabled artists) have tips for how to draw when your hand shakes and you cant draw a straight line? because ive been trying to get back into drawing but i have issues with my hands and my coordination so everything i draw is really messy and im not happy with how it looks because of that! ive tried using the correction tool or whatever its called and it still just isnt working. thanks in advance if you have any tips!

#i dobt know if this will work because i only get tremors sometimes #but usually i try go fast #then do fast eraser lines to fix it #this might not work tho

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Sorry to do this, but I don't seem to have many options.

At the end of last year, my partner and I were finally able to live together after years of being apart. We had troubles with employment, and I've lost two jobs in the months he's been here due to my health. We're both trans and disabled so finding a job that can accommodate my health needs is difficult. It's especially hard when your health seems to improve and decline depending on which planets are in retrograde.

Before anyone says something about "treatable" or "manageable" chronic illness, know that I've been sick since I was a year old. I've heard every shitty suggestion, pseudoscientific treatment or cure, and I'm not going to tolerate that kind of thing. If eating only lemon rinds and uncooked brown rice worked I would have done it by now.

Roughly 6 months into us living together, we were separated again. Luckily this was temporary, and we are living in the same place now. The problem is that we both lost our more affordable housing while both unemployed and moving isn't cheap...

The new place is fine and the roommates are fantastic people who didn't have to give us a space. Finally being able to live together, and to be ourselves has been amazing. That being said, we're broke as hell. I just got an email saying my account has hit zero, and we need help.

I can't go back on my word with the rent agreement, and if we can't pay, we can't stay. Right now, there isn't anywhere for us to go besides our small truck. Please consider donating to help two disabled queers stay housed. We need $400 by the end of the month, and any amount will help.

Of course, if you can't afford a donation, then please don't donate. Thank you for your consideration. Reblogs are greatly appreciated.

Ko-Fi: chiikysquirrel

Paypal: chiikysquirrel

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hate asking for reblogs but this is a sideblkg i have for a project , I want to get more responses for more accurate info

Introduction and information under cut:

About me: i am a fifteen year old trans autistic kid, i want to gather information on specifically mid to high level autism, and try design practical and accessible communication tools specifically designed for (albeit basic) interactions , in case of verbal shutdown

My other goals, this will be updated when any new plans come up: try see if there is a correlation between sensory shutdowns/meltdowns and sudden body pains , investigate correlations between being autistic and lgbtq+

My asks are open for constructive criticism or ideas 24/7 🫶 (new username ideas are appreciated/hj)

Any reblogs are much appreciated! This project was heavily influenced and inspired by @gendercensus

This project is linked to one which i am planning to present at science events in hope of raising awareness and brining in better accommodations for my local area, possibly more if i can

#actually audhd #actually autistic #autism #science #disabled #invisible disability

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to all my [few] followers if you exist, you will be bombarded with my dnd character/ bg3 tav because I'm brainrotted on him rn

probably one drawing a day depending on energy because I've been in negative spoons recently