ayinglair

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Dragging just one more person down with me would have felt like dying

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Lan Zhangerie

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Yet again I am betrayed by the universe

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#i forgot to make it tonally clear i was being whimsical #my bad 😁

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Hey I saw you from across the bar but my girlfriend didn't. Are you some manner of spirit

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comment on the new ghostbusters redlettermedia video

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To the corner!!!!!!

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Can I just get fucked in the ass in peace without it affecting my reputation

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Damn that is awkward lmao

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The sun sets on the Wen empire

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can i just die in your arms without you making it gay. Come on man

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"Do I deserve this?" "Am I worthy of this?"

So irrelevant. Do you want it?

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re: that last post, ive said it before and ill say it again: no one deserves to die (deserving is fake and death is bad) but some people need to be stopped and choose to make death the only way to stop them

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I want to help people

#I feel like I am either a neutral presence that does nothing #Or I am simultaneously the best and worst person you know #It just depends on how active I allow myself to be rather than passive #I am not sure what is better

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Anyway looking back at old posts on here is funny because I usually have no idea what the fuck I was talking about

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Because you must understand the "after" would be preferable

Feels like I'm missing out. Like my heart is overlooking something but I just can't get the lens to focus properly

#Irritating. Why am i not in perfect control of myself? Hmn? #Don't you know I am built different? I am not supposed to have to try

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Why do I default to the "before"

#That part of me feels so much more accessible on a day to day basis than the “after” #Do I just need more character growth? Then I can feel connected to lazing about in the jingshi on a regular basis? #Because rn i'm like “lol i was fucking WHO? anyway back to my projects and theories and sidequests”

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#Lan Zhan have you considered this?