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I see your eyes, I know you see me...

#not the best at taking pics but i like this one :) #v cyberpunk #cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk 2077 photomode #johnny silverhand #cyberpunk #fem v cyberpunk #fem v

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Back into Cyberpunk 2077

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JOHNNY SILVERHAND – Update 2.0 Appearance Cyberpunk 2077 (2020) dev. CD Projekt Red

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cant stop drawing this freak i love em so much uurrggghhj

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[ Idc that he most definitely doesn’t sleep I need to see him in the silly Night gown ]

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ooooh things are so bad rn lmao

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I think what really matters is that, no matter what happens, at the end of the day i will lay my little tired head on my pillow and feel safe and sleepy

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beautiful fish boys!💕

but i forgot about someone….. oh yeah

Wild Link has many things for exchange tho, just choose wisely

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link series pt 5

Skyward Sword

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i have midterms tomorrow and here i am 

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my hair is so cool

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alrighty maladaptive daydreaming community, I have news (who—

so apparently I have mixed personality disorders, I have traits of both schizoid AND schizotypal so!!!! yes sir I have a hard time keeping up with reality how did you guess!!!

but in all seriousness, if daydreams are affecting your life, especially if it's causing you some kind of paranoia, ideas of reference or like magical thinking etc, do consider seeing a professional about it!! you might be in the schizo spectrum!!!

again, take care and never forget that you are so brave and cool!!!

#maladaptive daydream #madd paras #actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #maladapting daydreaming disorder #maladaptive daydreamer #schizospec #schizo spectrum #schizoid personality disorder #schizoid #schizotypal #schizotypal personality disorder

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MY VERITBOND IS BACK BUT NOW SHE'S A GIRL?????

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What people think being schizospec is like: I hear demons in the walls and the Persian government is spying on me through the kitchen sink

What it’s actually like: My mind is constantly handing me ideas that don’t make sense. I hear small noises at night and think something bad is coming. I’m scared of people because of social anxiety, but I’m also scared of being alone because of paranoia. I’m convinced that others are doing things on purpose with the intention to hurt me. I can’t trust strangers. I wake up and everything feels threatening because my perception is distorted again. I keep having hallucinations of things crawling on me, and I know they’re not real because I can’t see them, but the tickling on my skin leads me to scratch myself anyway. I lock my doors over and over because of the intrusive thoughts and constant “what if” scenarios that play through my mind. I walk through life in a fever dream of detachment, and I’m obsessed with media that portrays magical versions of reality because I relate to feeling outside of it all. I need to be careful with the media I consume because certain things will give my paranoia new ideas. I’m often convinced something dangerous is waiting for me out of sight, but I’ve learned to ignore it if I can and remind myself that the feeling isn’t grounded in reality. My fears act like a child’s monster in the closet— I fear shifting shadows and things in the dark. But my fears are also very complex and often use complex scientific or philosophical theories to validate or negate themselves in my head. I feel foggy sometimes and it can scare me because I start feeling farther away from the world. The fogginess can also cause me to become disoriented and I frequently get lost and mix up my speech when I try to turn my thoughts into something I can communicate. I don’t understand people because I don’t experience emotions or reality the same way as everyone else. I have many feelings I can’t express or identify because they don’t have names— they feel abstract like shapes and colors. Sometimes my thoughts tear through my head at speeds I can’t understand, and I’m more prone to drinking because it slows down my mind to a pace I can relax to. People say my personality is very distinct because I speak and dress a particular way. It helps to have routines, verbal scripts, and set forms of expression so I can navigate my own life alongside other people’s in a more predictable way. Can people tell I’m severely dissociating right now?

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Had this glitch happen in a lecture and found it a good visual metaphor for how hard it is to read stuff you're not interested in

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my hair looks like helllll I wish it was less curly