bibblesaur

[bibblesaur]

I hate the agony that i feel in my own body i just want to rip my skin off

[bibblesaur]

Idk if thats a bpd or me thing

[bibblesaur]

Why is it whenever I try to make a cut deep it's cat scratches but when I don't even try I hit deep styro MAKE IT MAKE SENSE

#self h@rm #i want to cvt #cvtaddict #cvtt!ng #sh cvt #sh tumblr #sh things #self destructive behavior #baby cvts #styr0blr #hitting styro #made of styro

[bibblesaur]

I want out I wish I could escape this place

#depressing shit #i feel insane #actually mentally ill #i want to disappear #i want to cvt #i cant do it anymore #save my life #cry for help #abuse vent #no hope #im losing my mind #im in hell #help

[bibblesaur]

i know it was bad. i know he ruined me but he was so gentle with me. it felt like the world’s most tender stabbing. i hate remembering his hands on my body but i crave it more and more often. i know i shouldn’t feel this way, but i do. i should be disgusted with him, but i’m not. i don’t know how to fix myself.

[bibblesaur]

[bibblesaur]

MY BODY TURNED INTO A CORPSE WHEN YOU TOUCHED IT VIOLENTLY.

[bibblesaur]

i want my collarbones to stick out sharply over the collar of a baggy sweater. i want thin hands that can look so nice playing the violin and skinny fingers that will look nice with my rings. i want boney ankles and skinny legs that will look so nice in jeans and overalls. i want slim arms that tshirt sleeves will flop around. i want boney wrists that will look nice with a handful of handmade thread bracelets. i want that so badly.

[bibblesaur]

I'm all for romanticising your own ed so you don't go insane, but sometimes the realisation hits that all of this is scary and you could just stop eating entirely one day and then it's basically over for you, you'll willingly die because of your bizarre view of yourself

[bibblesaur]

I am losing touch with reality

#self h@rm #i want to cvt #cvtaddict #cvtt!ng #sh cvt #sh tumblr #sh things #ed ftm #i cant do it anymore #self destructive behavior #ed trans #ed tmblr #tw ed but not sheeran #🌟ving #🌟ve #i want to disappear #depressing shit #im drowning #cry for help

[bibblesaur]

I want someone to love me so much they end me

#im going insane #mentally unstable #self h@rm #i want to cvt #sh tumblr #sh things #i cant do it anymore #self destructive behavior #cvtt!ng #sh cvt #cvtaddict #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #break me

[bibblesaur]

Why did my abuse feel like love?

#self h@rm #i want to cvt #cvtaddict #sh cvt #sh tumblr #sh things #tw depressing thoughts #depressing shit #anxi4ty #i cant do it anymore #self destructive behavior #cvtt!ng #ed ftm #baby cvts #cutt1ng #cry for help #i wanna kms #broken

[bibblesaur]

I wish someone could gently hold me and make me feel safe while I bleed out

#self h@rm #i want to cvt #cvtaddict #cvtt!ng #sh cvt #sh tumblr #sh things #self destructive behavior #tw sui ideation #sui ideation #self h@te #self mut1lation #tw self destructive behavior #sewer slide #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw s3lf harm

[bibblesaur]

fuck i just wanna bleed out.

[bibblesaur]

My last breath will be a sigh of relief.

[bibblesaur]

I literally feel dead in a living body

[bibblesaur]

I don't know why I even try anymore. I wish I were dead. I wish my attempted murderer actually finished the job. I wish I wasn't too much of a coward to do it myself. I hate myself so much. Why do I still exist

#self h@rm #i want to cvt #cvtaddict #cvtt!ng #sh cvt #sh tumblr #sh things #ed ftm #i cant do it anymore #self destructive behavior #self h@te #tw sui ideation #depressing shit #boy ana #ana male #ana ftm #🌟ve #🌟ving #in too deep #break me #why am i here