byanyan

[byanyan]

just remembered that way back in the beginning, byan had this habit of carrying around sheets of cute stickers that they'd just slap down on things wherever they went like some sort of personal tag... kinda wanna bring that back ngl

#they weren't even personalized stickers or anything they were just ones they'd steal outta stores #but wherever they'd go there'd be these trails of pastel glittery hello kitty stickers left behind #I never really did anything with it... one of those things that sort of just got forgotten as I developed them further lmao #tho the concept sort of stayed alive in their interest/occasional engagement in street art I suppose #but I think it'd be fun to bring back. esp considering they already carry around black & pink sharpies for graffiti purposes anyway #just combine the two together. maaaan AND the sachets of glitter they carry around could work into this too...... #cuteass vandalism art shit idfk #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[byanyan]

so, my dog likes to lie on the kitchen floor in front of the fridge... but he takes so much offense to getting softly bumped with the fridge door, and yet!! he'll lay there and literally watch you reach for the door, not move when you slowly start to open it, and then jump up like you've smacked him the moment it touches as much as a hair... like what did u expect!!!! i'm sorry but if it bugs u that much why are u laying there all the time!!!!!! u know what's gonna happen when u see me reach for the door!!!!

#he always does these really big dramatic sighs when he sits up too #or he'll slink off looking all sad so u can't help but feel bad for him #he's such a fucking weirdo dude lmfao i love him so much #and honestly the more i sit here thinking about it the more this feels like smth byan would do too ngl #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.

[byanyan]

“Sleep is for the weak,” i say. my hands are shaking. i can hear colors.   

#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ musings ⋮ cowards only come through when the hour's late.

[byanyan]

— a burnt child loves the fire.

#BYANYAN: an ind. priv. sel. original character exploring themes of: not being sure where your trauma ends and your personality begins, emotions that all seem to come out as anger, rebelling through self expression because it's all you have, the comfort found in self destruction, unlearning all the harmful things you grew up being told about yourself, and learning to love yourself and others. written by grey (30, they/them, pst).

♡ rules. ♡ bio. ♡ verses. ♡ credit. ♡

#slaps this badboy down on the dash & slinks off into the void #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ self promo.

[byanyan]

byan occasionally posting ""lifehack"" tiktoks that start out sounding kind of legit but it always devolves into just "use a knife." bullied at school? use a knife. they get your order wrong at a fast food place? use a knife. someone forgot your birthday? use a knife. cutting your own bangs? use a knife. want a promotion at work? use a knife.

#'the more you know' graphic but the text reads 'knives solve everything' #this is stupid ignore me lmfao my functionality is falling off fast #they'd do this shit tho. like for real. they'd put SO MUCH effort into the vids too just for it to be a fucking shitpost ajfkgsg #they have a whole playlist that's just them knifeposting....... advising violence for everyday situations....... smh #safe to say they don't actually make any money off of their tiktok account lmfao #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ shitpost ⋮ bold of you to assume i've reached peak dumbass.

[byanyan]

"What would you do if you could fly?" :)

what would you do if...ㅤㅤ∘ ˚ ( accepting )

ㅤㅤ" if i could fly, it'd be fuckin' over for everyone. think i'm hard t' catch now? gimme a pair'a wings 'n you're never gettin' your hands on me. "ㅤeven as a hypothetical question, the very concept has them grinning. considering the amount of freedom they already find in parkour, they can only imagine how great being able to take it to the next level might feel. not having their feet confined to solid ground beneath them at all times... yeah, that sounds incredible.

ㅤㅤ" if i could fly, i'd be flyin' all the goddamn time. fuck every other mode'a transport, that's how i'm gettin' from point a to point b every. single. time. never hafta sit on some smelly bus or rely on someone else's stupid car t' get to the other side'a the city again. —think i'd still climb, though. maybe not as much, but i like the challenge of it too much t' give up. "

#bluefeathrs #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ answered: ic ⋮ i am a vulture that feeds on pain. #more escape methods more access to great hiding places being able to get some real distance any time they want/need....... #yeah. byan craves having as much freedom as possible and flight would be amaaaaazing for them #they'd be so much harder to find if that was a possibility for them lmao #tysm for sending ♡

[byanyan]

Send my muse “What would you do if...” scenarios.

#idfk man i have muse i want to write but i'm having a hell of a time focusing on my drafts & older inbox stuff :'v #this could be fun so i'm giving it a shot #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ meme ⋮ don't feed me to the vultures.

[byanyan]

not me sitting bolt upright at 11:30pm when my yt short recs remind me of this clip's existence and my brain starts aggressively pointing at it like "byan!! BYAN!!!" until i go out of my way to clip it myself & post it on my dumb blog

#pov u take byan to the arcade & u learn v quickly that they hate losing #remembered this one in a daze last night & it just. it never fails to make me laugh ok sfjgksh #they will cheat at games with absolutely 0 shame & this is exactly the energy #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ self reblog.

[byanyan]

what color are you right now?

Cyan Blue

ㅤOh you're loud. You're also very stuck in your own internal logic, often times you're right! Sometimes you're not... You're fun to be around, oh especially when you start ranting, but you're a little harsh on yourself. I think you're quite sweet, like rock candies. You're quite insightful when you want to be and you're definitely good to talk to, you listen when you want to. Maybe we can take turns ranting, maybe we can go for a drive, I think I can convince you to do some arson

tagged by:ㅤstole it off of @bluefeathrs ♡

#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ dash meme. #'i think i can convince you to do some arson' literally so easily lmfao u barely have to say anything #this was cute tho. pretty fitting too uvu

[byanyan]

[sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤya that checks out i do kinda tap a lot [sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤdon't even realize i'm doin it lmao [sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤswishy sound is probably skirts, ya... surprised u can hear that tho, feel like that's a lot quieter than like my jewelry n shit [sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤlmaooo the smell probably shoulda given u an idea at least, ur right [sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤstfu lmao [sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤit is something that'll be worth bragging about tho, i don't do that for just anyone [sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤi mean its def for those 2 but arson is such a fun activity for a rainy day [sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤu ever burned shit before? sooooo cathartic

[ text; byan ] Sometimes. Not always. If I have stuff I need to remember. [ text; byan ] I do hear the knives. I hear you tapping a lot too though that's obviously not just a you sound [ text; byan ] Sometimes a swishy sound? Those might be days you're wearing skirts though I don't know [ text; byan ] And then there's a very like. Cotton candy mixed with cigarette smell. Not in a bad way. [ text; byan ] Actually maybe I should have guessed the cute/punk thing sooner [ text; byan ] I definitely will do that. A wardrobe curated by a future fashion star? Like I could pass that up [ text; byan ] I always assumed it was for the cigarettes but my eyes have been opened [ text; byan ] Ha ha

#miidnighters #miidnighters / flynn. #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ic ⋮ we are not just graffiti on a passing train. #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ verse: college ⋮ here to change the vibes; a game changer. #ye that's kinda what i figured!!! and it makes sense!!! people have a way of making u feel like a burden & all that when ur disabled #and it also makes sm sense that he wouldn't just assume byan has a different perspective #esp bc they totally SEEM like the type who'd get really annoyed by that sorta thing lmfakfjsd #but it's actually one of their better qualities and i kinda love the misunderstanding of it

[byanyan]

ㅤa wave of relief, bigger than they expect, washes over them when they read flynn's replies and it doesn't sound like he's still pissed. the tension in their shoulders relaxes, and they sink back into the couch, still feeling a little exposed, but... less uncomfortable about it.

[sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤya, i guess

they more than guess, they know; someone you thought you could trust hurting you by ignorant accident and not realizing it is a pain not unfamiliar to them. they just hate that they were the ignorant dickhead this time.

[sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤits chill, i get it [sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤi still shoulda caught on sooner [sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤbut at least u did finally say smth instead of just sittin on it forever til u hated me lmao [sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤright??? thank u!!!! finally u get it!!! [sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤmaybe next time i make someone try it ill let u join me [sms: sk8er boi??]:ㅤ2 observe this time obvi

Flynn huffs when the phone doesn't immediately ding in response. He locks it, and sets it down. And then reconsiders and moves it to the spot where it goes, so that he'll be able to find it later. He's in that terrible kind of despondent mood, now, where he keeps picking things up and putting them down, intent on doing something that's not thinking about the argument they've just had, but unable to focus.

It's almost a relief when the phone announces a new text from Byan.

It's definitely a relief when he hears Byan thinks they get it now.

[ text; byan ] I know it wasn't intentional but that kind of made it worse, you know?

So yeah, Byan probably should have realised sooner, but Flynn's not the type to rub salt into those sorts of wounds. Getting the explanation and the apology is enough.

[ text; byan ] I'm sorry too. For not saying something sooner [ text; byan ] I'm not always as brave as you are about saying stuff [ text; byan ] But now that this is out there it's out, right? [ text; byan ] And besides. Objectively. The ramen thing is kind of funny.

#miidnighters #miidnighters / flynn. #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ic ⋮ we are not just graffiti on a passing train. #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ verse: college ⋮ here to change the vibes; a game changer. #it was a little dramatic but the drama helps them process lmfao #they're so glad he's not dwelling on the apology tho like they're so happy to just move straight past this now that they've been forgiven #emotional stuff over; time to lighten things back up smh smh

[byanyan]

ㅤㅤ" right? that kinda shit's exactly why i'm an advocate for not havin' to maintain your stupid corporate-mandated 'professionalism' for those kindsa dickheads. "ㅤand why they had a bit of a reputation for causing trouble for customers who harassed a certain other barista in their life. at the next question though, byan hesitated for half of a second, caught slightly off guard by the fact that she hadn't simply left it at that. then, just as quickly, they were reschooling their expression with another easy shrug.

ㅤㅤ" i mean, i was kinda livin' in his house, so. "ㅤnot to mention they'd been the one trying to do the avoiding, but they weren't about to admit that.ㅤ" yeah, ran into a little more trouble with 'im 'fore he managed t' finally get me outta there. nothin' else that involved any broken bones or anythin', though. "

Senja's gaze strayed for a moment as she tried to remember if “inferiority complex” fit the worst man she knew (her uncle). It didn't, neither did the word “pathetic”... but she knew who it DID fit.

“We get plenty of those types in the coffee shop. They are pretty pathetic to take their bad moods out on people who are just trying to do their jobs,” she said. “Did he avoid you from then on? Or did you have more trouble with him?”

#bluefeathrs #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ic ⋮ we are not just graffiti on a passing train.

[byanyan]

ㅤa strangled gasp immediately followed by a wet cough, and they come back to in a blur. no second to try and process what's happened, no moment to assess their injuries; instead, byan's already shoving themself up off the ground in a hurry, spitting blood to the concrete. the sudden feeling of hands at their elbow startles, and their head snaps in the other's direction, eyes wide and wild and full of frightened distrust.

ㅤㅤ" 'm fine. "ㅤthe insistence is instinctive, spoken despite the throbbing agony that's already begun to sink in across their entire body, arm sharply tugged from the stranger's grasp in order to stagger to their feet on their own.ㅤ" 'm fine. leave me alone. "

no — the time had to be wrong. 〈 they were far too young to hear the song by your lips. it felt as if all those close calls where you had lingered in the shadows were for nothing. 〉 it wouldn't hurt to ignore that ringing alarm bell. instead, silently glide over & grab onto byan's elbow to help them up from the nasty spill. // @byanyan

#cryptmouth #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ic ⋮ we are not just graffiti on a passing train. #YEAH YEAH YEAH I'M SO HERE FOR THAT #also hiiii it's been so nice seeing u around on the dash again :>

[byanyan]

feelin better today, thinkin I'm gonna just vibe & reply to whatever catches my little pea brain's attention lmao

#aka probably mostly shorter things.... but who knows #got a couple things I've been thinking about since before I dragged myself outta bed 👀 #so we'll see what happens #first tho....... coffee & some lunch for breakfast #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[byanyan]

i wanna hold ur stupid fuckin hand and kiss ur stupid fuckin lips and lean against ur stupid fuckin shoulder and cuDDLE UP WITH YOU UNDER THE STUPID FUCKIN BLANKETS AND HAVE STUPID FUCKIN CONVOS W U ABOUT EVERYTHIN G GOD IM SO MAD UR SO FUCKIN CUTE 

#literally byan @ their stupid fuckin cutie bf #━━ ˟ ⊰ ♡ rel: sol ⋮ find me where i am most ruined; love me there. #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ musings ⋮ cowards only come through when the hour's late.

[byanyan]

byan: *wants to have girly slumber parties... doing makeup, hair, nails, skincare, playing around w outfits, the whole thing, just all of it*

also byan, anytime someone invites them over for the night: lmao ok but like, let's get drunk as fuck and go smash some windows n shit

#they need more girl friends.......... they need more nb & gender non-conforming friends......... #but mostly they need more chaotic friends willing to do all of the above #a little substance abuse followed by some chaotic destruction..... #then coming back home to vibe with some self care & aesthetic shit u know?? #THAT'S what they need the most lmfao #okok I'm sorry I'll shut up I'll stop posting lmfjajfkgsh #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ shitpost ⋮ bold of you to assume i've reached peak dumbass.

[byanyan]

anyway i'm having a real down day so pls allow me to share more images i have saved purely for the byan vibes with y'all to cheer myself up lmao

#idk man it's the poses it's the expression it's the setting #it all just gives me the right energy u know #there's a soft 'up to something' sorta vibe when u look at the stills out of context ig? #if u get it u get it & I'm smooching u right on the face #ok more like I'm knocking my head against ur shoulder affectionately but same idea lmao #fun fact: byan's obsession w platforms was very softly inspired by the chunky sorts of shoes & boots jk tends to wear #just like...... taken to the extreme lmfao #& combat boots being their fallback when they need more functional footwear was absolutely inspired by him #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.