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“You don’t want love, you want a love experience.”

Knight of Cups (2015) dir. Terrence Malick

#lestat / prince de mon coeur #daniel molloy / joli petit journaliste #aes / material world #vampire chronicles verse. #charm them back again / queue #nsfw cw

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Audrey wishes to deny it, on impulse. To deny the young violinist the satisfaction of being right. But he is right, to an extent, of course.

"But I--" she manages weakly. "I am a.ncien r.egime, even if I don't behave as such. Even if it doesn't matter, really," she shakes her head in something like defeat. "Unlike the b.ourgeoise and the common folk, or the people my father so wrongly crushes underneath his boots, not that I take any issue with any of the above. But, we cannot simply run, Nicolas," a sigh. "Well, I suppose we can, but not easily..." she nearly avoids calling him Nicki, she doesn't wish to be rude or intentionally lacking manners.

A look of shame crosses Audrey's face. A rare occurrence. "I am sorry -- I shouldn't trouble you, my problems are my own. It is my fault -- I let him, my 'maker's' auburn hair, steady hands and brown eyes... easy to be seduced by. It is still my fault. He was charming." A lie, of course, a vicious lie. But she isn't rightly sure what else to tell herself.

"Your company I would be glad to have, but as a friend- not a customer. And not in the bedroom."

A momentary cheerful smile crosses Audrey's painted pink lips. "I mean no offence, of course... but, you're not exactly my type," she laughs airily.

"You're far more discerning than I, at least that's what I assumed. You don't share Lestat and I's tendencies. That is, I am sure some opera singer or pianist would gladly have you... if only you wanted them. But, we can only be as we are."

"It depends on whether one is running from or running away, I suppose" Nicolas mused. "Is it cowardice for a prisoner to escape their jailer? If there were times I acted in fear, it was the years I staye din Auvergne, hiding myself, lying to myself and to everyone, pretending to be the son that they wanted. Coming to Paris was an open act of defiance."

He looks at her as she mentions her profession. "Well, then I am glad to be the exception, if only to give you some variety. I have no taste for flattery." He had had enough empty words and gestures- Lestat's gifts, people's praise of his music. "Your company I would be glad to have, but as a friend- not a customer. And not in the bedroom."

#symphonyofmalice #ic / can’t fuck with a fucktress #epaine #verse: vampire chronicles #timeline: 18th century #victim blaming cw #period typical attitudes cw #trauma tw

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“i saw benjamin tallmadge, all done up in blue and gold.” 

Benjamin Tallmadge aesthetic for Anon

#benjamin / my sunbeam #historical verse. #18th century #charm them back again / queue

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keep the light on, keep the light on i’m waiting keep the light on, keep the light on i’m waiting for you

#benjamin / my sunbeam #historical verse. #18th century #charm them back again / queue

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Homeland, s06e06

tallboy following general to homeland

i’m too emotional rn

#benjamin / my sunbeam #modern verse.

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Audrey ought not to take such satisfaction in the way the rest of the theatre vampires -- save for Nicolas gawk at her. Yes, she knows, the Vicomte's daughter who willfully gave it up for freedom and w.horedom, and unlike some... won that fight. But Audrey isn't as strong as she appears, nor is she as weak as she often plays at being.

"That isn't what I meant -- Nicolas," a sigh. "You know it as well as I. I do not want the one who made me. I could always run, I suppose, but that'd make me cowardly and childish." Audrey doesn't mean it as a slight, only -- she's always stood her ground. Until the 'opposition' stands down.

There's a small coquettish smirk on Audrey's face, momentarily, but it leaves just as fast, replaced with undeniable grief and wretchedness. Of course, Audrey loves her sister, of course, she loves Lestat. More than is polite to say in Nicolas's company. For fear of appearing coy, or else -- twisting a blade upon the violinist who has done her no wrong. It isn't fair, it isn't right. But then, things seldom are.

"Forgive me, Monsieur, I think I've said too much. It is rare to meet well... anyone who doesn't wish to pay me at least for my company and flattery."

"You're like Lestat, then. He was always...non-discriminating" Nicolas says, then realizes it might come across as insulting to imply Lestat wasn't picky. "He has taste, and an eye for the aesthetic" he clarifies "but he always had a talent for finding the beauty in everything. Even in places it shouldn't be, like me."

There was another way Audrey had more in common with Lestat that Nicolas- being turned by force. "I did. I had to beg and scream at him to give me the Gift. He owed it to me, after everything." But still, Nicolas could understand the experience of being taken, used. He had, of course, not expected to be kidnapped by the coven. But in his own mind, he partially believed he had asked for it, in a way. Hadn't he come to Paris seeking damnation?

"I cannot tell you how to feel about your maker. But I can say this much- someone who used you would want you to go away quietly. To disappear once you could no longer serve him. I think it is better to be loud, be visible, and spite the one who hurt you. Persephone was more feared than Hades, in some respects."

#symphonyofmalice #ic / can’t fuck with a fucktress #epaine #verse: vampire chronicles #timeline: 18th century #trauma tw

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vampirism poses the question "what if there was a fundamental, horrible, unending well of want in your soul that, if truly satisfied, would lead to great pain for all those you hold closest and, in turn, their absolute and total revilement of you?" and naturally as a person with no problems I don't relate to this in any way at all.

#about / audrey #any verse.

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"If clarity's in death, then why won't this die? Years of tearing down our banners, you and I. Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts, give me back my girlhood, it was mine first."

Indie priv & selective book based multi-muse, ft muses from Bridgerton, ACOTAR and many more. Loved by Tiny.

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"I Am So Much More Than What You Made Me"

Indie & Selective Astarion Ancunin

Edict / Existence

as penned by Midori

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#benjamin / my sunbeam #historical verse. #18th century #charm them back again / queue

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Audrey laughed teasingly at that. A less bold sort might be taken back, but no, Audrey's lips simply turn to a deceptively soft smile at that.

"I am shocked you assume different," A pause. Then it cannot be helped, "My dear," though inside she is screaming against her better judgement, what are we? Is this wise? But she wants and she wants badly.

A sad sigh at his comment on 'avoidance.'

"I don't get much good company either -- you know. Usually... those who come to me want me bent over a desk, some come with malice. I'd personally abide being bent over a desk and used as a plaything then, well..." she stops. Audrey's said too much, she fears.

"At least it means the blood comes easy. I wouldn't trade it out. I do fear for my own mind at times."

the vampire laughs at the others remark. "am I a sin, now?"

he doesn't move from his place against the wall, raising his cigarette to his lips, taking a deep inhale before letting the smoke travel towards his companion. the thought made the smallest smirk creep across his face.

"I'm not that hard to avoid. if you know how to do it."

#2kyears #ic / can’t fuck with a fucktress #maurice x audrey #verse: modern #Maurice / irksome attraction #mildly suggestive cw

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#visage / charmante #mistress death #any verse. #charm them back again / queue

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I just wanna peg him -- and, also, bite him so hard that my dull human teeth leave imprints on his pale skin -- and, well, several other dozen filthy things

#musings / a killer queen #lestat x Audrey #ben x audrey #Maurice x Audrey #benjamin / my sunbeam #lestat / prince de mon coeur #Maurice / irksome attraction #any verse. #nsfw cw

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❝ Do you know what a harlequin is? A harlequin’s role is to serve. It’s nothing without a master. And no one gives two sh*ts who we are beyond that. ❞

indie. priv. highly sel. dr. harleen quinzel of dc. est. 2022.

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Audrey lets out a light laugh, though most shockingly lacking malice.

"You're rather difficult to avoid, and I -- unlike some, do not run from my sins," Audrey replied, as though attempting to parry his remark. She narrowly avoids using the word love in her manner of address to Maurice. She swears, if she were still warm with blood she would blush furiously. It is more than just they tolerate one another so Audrey has observed. He excited her worst impulses and Audrey, being Audrey, couldn't say no.

cigarette hangs loosely from long pale digits before the vampire lifts it to his lips, inhaling deeply before letting it fall to his side, one of his boots pressed against the concrete of the building. he hears the other approaching before he sees them.

"it's been a while since i've seen you." his voice is quiet. "couldn't stay away?"

@charmantevamp ASKED FOR A STARTER

#2kyears #ic / can’t fuck with a fucktress #maurice x audrey #verse: modern #Maurice / irksome attraction #charm them back again / queue

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Continued from x ~ @honorhearted

"W-what are you...?"

Audrey laughed coquettishly at that, "I am yours," Audrey stated quietly. "Always yours..." she murmured in something bordering upon desperation and need. At this rate, she is exceedingly close to dragging him back to bed with her. Distracting him, so to speak.

Fetching a handkerchief and cleaning the black dot on his nose, she lingers. A beat of hesitation, then a soft mouth is pressed to his.

"Come back to bed," Audrey almost whines. "Your anxiety will not solve this war."

#honorhearted #ic / can’t fuck with a fucktress #a case of desperation #verse: historical. #ben x audrey #benjamin / my sunbeam

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the best of the culper ring [4/4]

#benjamin / my sunbeam #historical verse. #18th century #charm them back again / queue