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many trans people have deadnames but some also have ghostnames. names you used during a temporary part of your journey and then left behind when they had served their purpose, or names you secretly wanted to be called at some point in your life but hesitated to make your own, or names that somehow felt familiar to you every time you heard them but just never became yours. names that linger around you in limbo.

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Oxy

#put me in there

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i love when characters get angry when they're frightened. shelter dog characters. i love when they bite, not able to tell the difference between a hand that feeds and a hand that strikes. there is no difference. a hand is a hand is a fist. i love characters that are deemed unadoptable. unlovable.

and i love when someone loves them. i love when someone sits with them, patient. they don't flinch at the snarling and snapping. they're not trying to fix it—there's nothing to be fixed. this is you, all of you, and ill wait. because one day, one day you'll take the treat. go on, draw my blood. spit and curse and rage. you're safe with me. one day, you'll feel safe with me.

#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #queue like my shoes?

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I love you robots and artificial intelligence with mental illness. I love you repression being depicted as literally deleting archived data to preserve functionality. I love you anxiety attacks being depicted as a system crashing virus. I love you ptsd being depicted as an annoying pop-up. I love you anxiety disorder being depicted as running thousands of simulations and projected outcomes. I love you artificial beings being shown to be human via their own artificiality.

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haha that's a nice starry-eyed ambition you've got there buddy. sure hope the narrative doesn't warp it into something ruthless and all-consuming

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the girls...

#the girls <3

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What I’d give for one of the Cinderella remakes to go into how when you’re in an isolated and abusive situation, sometimes you need to be saved and you’re not weak if you can’t escape by yourself

I’ve never been a fan of bad faith reinterpretations of fairy tales, especially ones which flatten the originals into “princesses is saved by a prince and nothing else”, to then go #girlboss. The princess can save herself because she’s a strong female character! (Implying if you’re in a bad situation, it’s because you’re not strong enough to get out)

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This is a nice sign to look at. 10/10 for composition.

he looks so confident

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I turn to Ares.

Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK

⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon

#pantheon renewed #big thoughts #ooauhhg

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Kill me once, shame on you. Kill me twice, how did you did that.

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Some cameras. The second one is a knockoff of the Barbie jelly camera.

Source

#eats these #so crunchy #cameras

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well, uhmmm.... hm

#ethoslab #tangotek #pearlescentmoon #love this!!! #verry good!

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#ethoslab #nice art

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you stupid fucking idiot i can’t believe you died and got resurrected and are now safely in my arms again. I’ll kill you

#and id do it again

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haunted house uquiz by streetlighthalo

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my fanart of hollowknight,2021

#hollow knight #Soooo pretty!! #Verry Good!!!

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I dug out so many bones, but they were never my own.