ok but volo's lil remark in masters about how 'you have to use them before they use you' is driving me insane. for the longest time i was like under the impression volo's disconnect from the rest of the people around him was like, at least Partially his own fault. like he pushed away most anyone that could maybe give him solace. he had no interest in actually being a apart of the gingko guild, his relationship with cogita is strained to say the Least. and like notably, literally every other main character is explicitly said to have some kind of home or family, be it in hisui or elsewhere. but volo had literally no one, n i always kinda interpreted it as him having the opportunity to better himself but actively choosing not to n instead just. go nuclear abt it.
but now im like. oh no actually, so someone Hurt you. Hurt hurt you. someone did Something to twist your worldview to the point where you think everyone is out to get you, and its strictly a dog eat dog world. but also you still want the world to be a better, happier place, and you're only Also participating in your made up dog eat dog world bc its the only way you believe you can survive. im fuking sobbinh, im throwing up, do you get it. do you get it.