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Keep Me Sane

The doctor tries to stop the pain,

So prescriptions are given to keep me sane.

Pop some pills before i go to sleep,

Because that’s where people go for peace,

But my demons still find me in my dreams.

I seen things i can’t get out of mind,

But for my family I got to be fine.

It’s hard to stay strong in a world so cold,

But i promised the ones i love i would never fold.

One day I met nicotine,

Turned me into a feen.

Thought it was my friend,

After all it stop me from trying be dead.

Poor coping mechanisms only made it worse though,

Because when life got better my mind was still in the gutter.

Because the sadness inside my soul,

had already dug such a deep hole.

                               - Chloe May

#poetry poet depression love hurt drugs

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No More Pretend

Trust issues I was hesitant at first,

But you gassed me up convinced me we would work.

Thought you was the sweetest said, “we could take our time”,

Told me you was different you  “not like these other guys”,

I did not love anyone before you so I gave you all of me,

Did not know you would rip my heart right off my sleeve.

Nine months that’s when I gave my body up,

Told me it’s okay we gone always be in love.

We was planning out our future as the months went by,

Then you started acting sketchy we’re not seeing eye to eye.

Said you would always ride for me,

But when shit got hard where was you to care for me.

Started feeling lonely your not picking up the phone,

You knew my mid did damage when I was all alone.

Wanted to be numb so I started doing drugs,

Started smoking weed and getting buzzed off nicotine.

But you was my biggest addiction and I was going through withdrawls,

Wouldn’t have gotten involved had I known it would cause all these problems.

Stuck by you while I was falling apart,

But you were out at parties not playing your part.

So I was at home depressed feeling worthless,

Another night of you ghosting me so I lit up some weed.

Didn’t know that night was almost the end of me,

Put in the hospital for days multiple diagnosis including PTSD.

I had gotten drugged, man, it really messed me up,

My momma reached out and told you where was.

You told her you loved me and would be there for me,

When I got out you came to see me.

But you were acting weird yet I pushed it to the side,

Because I couldn’t take no more hurt so I listened to your lies.

You said we was together but then you went ghost again,

I guess you thought I was damaged not worth anymore of your pretend.

                                                           -Chloe May

#poetry poet depression trustissues lies love relationships