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There's always something new to learn everyday when ure in the kitchen... And this time round, with the Head Chef, I'm learning how to make Prawn Cakes made from scratch :D **always keep your mind open** is what I always tell myself to keep learning new things.. :)

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All the best for you I guess....

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Soooooooooo, welcome to my new 2nd house @kovan! It’s newly designed and newly furnished as of today! Feeling so eff-ing accomplished with dad and bro that helped made the renovations and shifting and all that made it possible. And thanks to dad for transferring our names here.. And thank euu @urban-habitat for the designing and planning and all from stage 1.

What a fruitful and accomplished day for us. Glad that this day (today) hasn’t been wasted unknowingly.. Hahhahaha..

#morepicstocome. #kovan-ians. #feelingaccomplished…

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天后。。

终于找到借口趁着醉意上心头 zhong yu zhao dao jie kou chen zhe zui yi shang xin tou 表达我所有感受 biao da wo suo you gan shou 寂寞渐浓 沉默留在舞池角落 ji mo jian nong chen mo liu zai wu chi jiao luo 你说的太少或太多 ni shuo de tai shao huo tai duo 都会让人更惶恐 dou hui rang ren geng huang kong 谁任由谁放纵 谁会先让出自由 shui ren you shui fang zong shui hui xian rang chu zi you 最后一定总是我 zui hou yi ding zhong shi wo 双脚悬空 在你冷酷热情间游走 shuang jiao xian kong zai ni leng ku re qing jian you zou 被侵占所有还要笑着接受 bei qing zhan suo you hai yao xiao zhe jie shou 我嫉妒你的爱 气势如虹 wo ji du ni de ai qi shi ru hong 像个人气高居不下的天后 xiang ge ren qi gao ju bu xia de tian hou 你要的不是我 而是一种虚荣 ni yao de bu shi wo er shi yi zhong xu rong 有人疼才显得多么出众 you ren teng cai xian de duo me chu zong 我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容 wo xian ru mang mu kuang lian de kuan rong 成全了你万众宠爱的天后 cheng quan le ni wan zong cong ai de tian hou 若爱只剩诱惑 只剩彼此忍受 ruo ai zhi sheng you huo zhi sheng bi ci ren shou 别再互相折磨 bie zai hu xiang zhe mo 因为我们都有错 yin wei wo men dou you cuo 推开苍白的手 推开苍白的厮守 tui kai cang bai de shou tui kai cang bai de si shou 管你有多么失措 guan ni you duo me shi cuo 别再叫我 心软是最致命的脆弱 bie zai jiao wo xin ruan shi zui zhi ming de cui ruo 我明明都懂却仍拚死效忠 wo ming ming dou dong que reng ping si xiao zhong 我嫉妒你的爱 气势如虹 wo ji du ni de ai qi shi ru hong 像个人气高居不下的天后 xiang ge ren qi gao hu bu xia de tian hou 你要的不是我 而是一种虚荣 ni yao de bu shi wo er shi yi zhong xu rong 有人疼才显得多么出众 you ren teng cai xian de duo me chu zong 我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容 wo xian ru mang mu kuang lian de kuan rong 成全了你万众宠爱的天后 cheng quan le ni wan zong cong ai de tian hou 若爱只剩诱惑 只剩彼此忍受 ruo ai zhi sheng you huo zhi sheng bi ci ren shou 别再互相折磨 bie zai hu xiang zhe mo 因为我们都有错 yin wei wo men dou you cuo 如果有一天爱不再迷惑 ru guo you yi tian ai bu zai mi huo 足够去看清所有是非对错 zhu gou qu kan qing suo you shi fei dui cuo 直到那个时候 你在我的心中 zhi dao na ge shi hou ni zai wo de xin zhong 将不再被歌颂 把你当作天后 jiang bu zai bei ge song ba ni dang zuo tian hou 不会再是我 bu hui zai shi wo Signing off Kenxchngxoxo

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One in a Million..

Y'know, i'm not the only walking contradiction.. (Phone call) V says: Eh K, i tell you, we seriously have to cut down on liquor K says: (I just woke up) Oh.. yea.. okay... V says: Really. Everyday we're drinking.. it's not good for health y'know? K says: Okay... yea.. V says: Gimme a minute uh. THEN this contradicting person said in the background, "Uncle, 1btl of tiger please.." Wtf. Woke me up just to tell me bullshit. @: V says: Yea hello? K says: WTF! $#^%&%*^*(&)& Then, my vulgar word vomit came out. Lol. Okay, though she tell me crap, i still miss her la. We're going shopping. Saw this pair of shoes and i described them to her and she couldnt picture it in her mind. I dont blame her. It takes an artistic person to do so anyways. So.. being sucha nice and kind bestfriend, i drew her the shoe feeling rather.. accomplished. And the very first thing she said was... "what the fuck is that?!" Great. Tell me, this type of bestfriend, where to find? Truly one in a million.. Lol. --

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I hate it when i let my emotions get a better hold on me. When i choose my head over my heart. Words come rushing out like vomit. Word vomit. The thing about words being said is that you can never take them back. No matter how much you want to. Then you've to face the aftermath with your heart filled with much regrets, anger, guilt. Me the epitome of rash, strong-headed, harsh and well being kind of a.. bastard.. Maybe at first i'll be like.. "no way", but i guess too many people have told me that i'm one (or even all) of the above mentioned. Not much of a shocker anymore. I've digested the cold hard truth, so nothing new there. I hope i dont cross the line anytime soon or ever even. Why cant i just.. chillax? That's the respond i always get when i'm mad. Haha. I need anger management courses, like seriously. 

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Love.

Im changing. Im growing. Im not the person whom i use to be, and that's perfectly fine with me. But you dont know me. Im not the guy whom i used to be. You're in love with this girl who thought you were her everything then. But the truth is, she's not here anymore. She dont even think she know me, what more to even try and understand me. When I said I loved you, you just laughed. Girl, you dont know anything about love. If you think this is love, then im sorry, cuz you dont. I have been through my share of joy and heartbreaks, but man, this is not love. Seriously. "Who are you to talk about love?", you ask. Nobody actually. Im just a sucker for romance just like anyone else i guess. But like i said before, i would really want someone who would be there for me throughout. Not only when she feels like it. And each anniversary, each special occasion would be memorable and happy. We'll be happy cuz we have each other. We dont have to be with each other 24/7, but we want to. Not that we have no life separately, but when you're in love, he becomes part of it. She would mean everything to me, and i would mean everything to her. To have and to hold. And whoever says that "it's only like that during the start of the relationship cuz it's the honeymoon period.." i tell you, fuck you. Fuck you.

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Careful with the matters of the heart.

It's the little things that you do, they pulled me in and I'm defenseless. I tried to ignore like I've done before but it's just useless. I've made up my mind that I'm gonna let you in. And I'm not afraid but I have to say, this is gonna hurt if it ever ends. But somehow you have shattered my defense, the walls i built around my heart. It's the things you do, they made me fall hard for you and I can't help it. And it's every day that I feel this way, so just don't stop it. You hit me like a ray of sun, burning through my darkest night. You're the only one that I want. I think I'm addicted to your light. I guess I'll take my chances now that I know love is on the line... #chancesarealreadyover. #loveisneverontheline #Sunray Signing off: Kenxchngxoxo

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The week has been pretty hectic for me lately. Im really looking forward to tomorrow and the long weekends. I feel the need for a getaway. Too many things on my mind that i wish to release. Always easier said than done, sadly.. But one thing's for sure, i cant run away from problems. Sooner or later, i'll have to suck it up and just embrace them. Something of which im not much of a fan of. Hmm.. I dont know why it's taking me sucha long time to blog about this post. I find myself staring at the screen with many thoughts running through my head but nothing to type. Okay, maybe not nothing. But i dont know where to start, how to start. But then again, some things are better left unsaid? I dont know.. but what i do know is the people who i can always confide to no matter what. I guess it's just one of those "fuck dammit, i feel like shit"- days. Gah. Im starting to feel like a very contradicting person. I can always give people advices and feel accomplished when things get better for them, etcetera. But i find it hard to use my own advices and imply them on myself. I remember what i told J, "Fuck what others say cuz in the end, it's just the both of you. As long as both of you love each other, that's all that matters.." But now when im in that position, that similar spot.. man it feels like shit. I know you feel.. upset/angry/shitty for me about the whole situation, but.. look on the "bright" side. We shall feel like shit together. ((: Speaking of together, im meeting VNZ tomorrow after so long! We've all been so busy with our lives and our schedules always clash. /: I havent seen N for almost a month! Z even longer! But the last thing i want to do is to worry them. I gotta just push all the negative shit to the back of my head and hopefully they wont resurface for awhile.. So it turns out that i do know what to type afterall. Ha. This has got to be the longest of entries that i took so long to type. Lol. xx As long as i have you right here by me.. But, i dont...

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Okay, i wont say any relationship(s) will be perfect, smooth, or like a fairytale etcetera cuz.. i dont believe in that crap frankly. (Yes, i think it's bullshit. I mean like, come on?) Every relationship is like a rollar coaster ride with tons of ups and downs. It's going through those moments together that makes it all worth while. But, i do know that everything didn't turn out great or as planned for me. My belief still stands that "everything happens for a reason". Like i said, things didn't turn out great for me cuz i met SheenaL. I feel that im very fortunate to have her in my life, someone whom i know i can rely on. Even if she makes me look like a retard laughing to myself in buses with the smses she sends, and even if she ALWAYS bullies me. Haha. But nevertheless, i still love her and i believe in her, in us and the relationship. ♥ Signing off: Kenxchngxoxo.

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YOU STOLE MY HEART AWAY.

Sometimes i wish i was a better boyfriend. Hate it when i fuck things up sometimes without even realizing it. You’re precious to me. Very. Sometimes.. i wish you never had a past, even though i know i love you for the way you are and who you are. But contradicting enough, i believe everything happens for a reason. Even for my past. I’m always glad to have met you. Right day, right time. Random circumstance? No. But fate. Two roads intertwine.

I know what i want. And that’s you. You’re everything i want, everything i need. I was a very practical person. I dont believe someone can be another person’s life. I dont believe in promises. I hold no expectations. No expectations, no disappointments. “You mean the world to me”, is bullshit. But that was because i didnt understand. Until you showed me how love can be so wonderful, so unselfish. I know I do love you even if i dont say it all the time. You really gave me hope, and changed the way i see things. I finally understood how can one person mean so much to another. It’s like.. Me standing somewhere waiting, looking out for you. Then you appeared, you stood out from the crowd. You still make me blush, my heart beats faster and you take my breath away. My vision seems blur and only you’re clear. It’s like you’re the only one there. Then you smile.. omg, i melt. It was like the rest of the world evaporated, and you became my world. Happens everytime.

With you, that’s the future i want and hope to head and to have. A part of me feels you deserve so much better than me, but i’m just that selfish to let you go. “Fight for your happiness..”, they say. And i know i would for you. I’m going to do better baby. But how do I do better? I’m not gonna let you down. Darling, wait and see.. Let’s wait and see… Perhaps, time will tell…

So do you want this (you and me, our relationship, our love) for the rest of your life? I know i do.

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I wanna let you know that i miss you. I miss our night talks, smses etcetera. Seems like they're getting lesser each day because of our busy schedule and workload. I know I'll always be here for you, the words you speak i dont doubt. You know I'll do almost anything for you. "You're always my priority", i say. You know that whenever you feel sad or lonely, I'll rush down just to keep you company. And you know i'm always just a phone call away, always willing to answer your calls even if im already sleeping/tired. I miss you. So very much. Missing you was never easy to handle. Never is, never will. Sometimes your thoughts run wild, or you might feel alittle lonely without me here physically with you, but at the end of the day, you know that we're never really far apart. For you're always in my heart. ((: Signing off: Kenxchngxoxo

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Woke up with loud thunders and lightening this morning. "Rain..", i thought to myself. I like raining days. Without knowing, i stretched my hand across the bed wanted to hug you but you werent there. My eyes opened slowly, and realised how silly i was. I would like to pull the blanket over our heads, in the dark. At times we'll wrestle, at times we'll just cuddle. I've always loved the feeling. The feeling of you being beside me. Reached over for my phone to call you immediately. Didnt even care whether you were sleeping in the train or whatever. I just wanted to hear your voice. Sometimes i want to be angry with you, but dammit, i never succeed. You always find a way to make me happy or smile. Girl, You always know what to do. Signing off: Kenxchng

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:)

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Yes. You're pretty too...

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Well.... This shit's NOT happening fast enough tho... Fml..

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Thank you (BRK) Beach Road Kitchen @ JW Marriott for opening and extending the invitation to me and asking if I’m keen to take up the position of a Customer Service Quality Snr Manager. :) Salary: $S un-disclosed.

I’m looking fwd to the Grand Opening of this Restaurant and to train and redefine the Service Quality skills of my team. Best-est of luck till then. I’ll see you after the renovations that will be done up and ready in approx: 2weeks time.

Ps… Only an 8hr job… ;) after that, I can focus on running my own family restaurant.. Awesome!

#plans