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a piece based off @/briarforger on twt’s fic the end of desire!! the fic was sincerely so beautifully written and thistle’s section made me turn into a small pathetic puddle please please please go and read it, it is truly a stunning work i can’t recommend it enough

all text on the image are direct quotes!! created and posted with permission from the author <3

#reminds me of an rpg character of mine

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literally though if you feel like your life is slipping through your fingers and every day goes too fast… try doing hard things, not just taking the easy route, like reading and making art and exercising and cooking a meal from scratch and journaling, doing these things without distraction, without being absorbed on a screen… the time will stretch and you’ll be reminded that life is long and beautiful if you make it so.

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Charmed

blindfolding a robot girl, telling her you’re taking her to a surprise party, and then promptly dropping her off at a competitive hacking convention

#joking #normal hypnosis content

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I win >:)

#People who know me well know i could take this thing six more times and get answers I'm just as happy with #but I'm hyped that this was the first one i got

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i need a gf that will let me pathetically hump her leg in bed while she ignores me and scrolls on her phone is that too much to ask

#general kink #both sides of this please

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The divine is often fragile. Mortals like to think of divinity as indomitable, immortal, truly unkillable and infinitely resilient. But that is only because mortals think of divine life in mortal terms. This is fundamentally flawed, and many theosophers don't recognize this.

The divine is will, filtered onto the mortal plane. One does not hard will with weaponry. Meanwhile, a divinity who has fallen deeply, truly in love and had that love rejected, will find themselves wasting away unless their love ends, or is returned in full.

Some mortals think this manipulative, but they again are viewing it through mortal terms. To divine, mortals asking to be spared from violence is committing the same. Divinities often do not understand how mortal beings can't return love to save a life. Mutually incomprehensible.

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Me: I’m cleaning.

Friend: A mind or your apartment?

Me: Valid question.

doesn’t clarify

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girlhood is touching your necklace whenever you feel nervous

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The good news is that no one hates you as much as you hate yourself.

The bad news is that you may never shake the feeling that if they knew you as well as you know yourself, they would.

The good news is that they just might know you better.

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One of my favorite mind control tropes is when the sub is aware of what's happening, but can't do anything about it. On the outside they have a blank, empty expression and mindlessly obey, but on the inside they're asking what's happening and struggling to fight it. Their conscious mind is completely aware but locked away unable go fight or resist as they are still in a deep sleep and mindlessly obeying all the doms commands. No matter how much the sub panics, resists, or tries to fight they are completely helpless. Such a hot trope 💕

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Sometimes sexual fantasies aren’t about getting off they’re about being broken down until you cry

#general kink

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Thank you for what you've done and continue to do, and thanks to the many, many others who have made the community safer.

Here's to welcoming in the young idiots who don't know any better, so they can learn.

it’s literally your own fault that you have trauma from personality play, idiot. why the fuck would you EVER engage in intense kink with people you didn’t trust/people who didn’t believe in hypnosis/etc. and not practice the most obvious safety precautions during lmao. moronic behavior honestly.

Wasn't 100% sure if I should reply or delete-- My rule is to delete anon-hate without a second thought and the moment the word 'idiot' was brought out it fell into that category. So firstly, no sympathy/support either for the message or the circumstances please. I'm not here for that and it undermines the point if people focus on that.

Buuut here's the thing. I know. This isn't an accusation or an insult or even mean. Everything you say is in the body of the Ethical Personality Play post. Like-- uuuh--- I dunno what to say? Congrats, you read the post?

Fact is these events happened 15+ years ago and the community lacked the support, education and structure that it has now. I'm trying to help build something which I needed back then. Will I save everyone? No. Can I help like one person? I hope so.

But like, I was a self-destructive moronic idiot 15+ years ago and I am sorta open about it?

Like here are direct quotes (key quotes bolded):

I have experience with this fallacy myself. In utilizing hypnosis to ignore my triggers I did severe damage to myself and I am now plagued with intrusive memories and nightmares of events that happened during scenes that I was able to effortlessly indulge in during the scene but as they say "The body keeps the score" and I was in fact doing further damage to myself. Something which my partner at the time was not equipped to deal with because I'd failed to disclose or even treat the situation as worth being safe about. Now I am just burdened with further damage by ignoring my brain's defenses on my existing pain.

Likewise I want to note the power imbalance that comes from play like this. A motivated hypnotee can fling themselves into this arena and do harm to the hypnotist. This does fly both ways. A hypnotee not advocating for themselves or exercising their agency will make a hypnotist accessory to the damage. This is a sin I have committed.

...look... I don't want to be an old lady yelling at the kids for doing things when I did them myself at that age. I'd be a hypocrite if I didn't pretend I didn't see the allure on both sides of the watch.

I just... there weren't 20+ year experienced hypnosis veterans who had been in my character play abusing position when I was growing up. No one warned me. I learned all this the hard way and I hurt people. People I loved. Moreover I hurt me. In ways that will never heal. I just want to spare anyone I can the pain of going through this.

So--- like

Yeah. You read the post and understood it. I'm glad you read the post and understood it.

The landscape was different back then but that's no excuse. We were a fucking dumb child who wanted to be anyone but ourselves and acted recklessly because of it. We were a dangerous and toxic hypnotee and we should have known better.

That's the lesson. That's the point. I'm not here to ask forgiveness from the people I hurt or sympathy for the fact we fucked up. We just want to help build framework that didn't exist when we were starting out.

History on the hypnokink community is a topic that probably does need to be taught-- but if you're young enough that you've never known a place without framework, education and support then I'm glad, honestly. It means a lot of good people, dedicated people, have done work building houses my silly little essays can only manage to move pebbles with. I'm glad for that. Really.

The post isn't there for you to think "Poor Cammie :(" it's there for you to think "What an idiot, I'm never going to be like her"

So-- yeah-- I don't post anon-hate as a rule-- so thank you for the fan mail. Knee-jerk reaction aside, it makes me happy that you got the point.

#theory and practice #hypnokink

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do you ever laugh with your friends and think oh this is the point. this is the point of everything

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They show up in my dms with a meme that reminded them of me, and we start talking for the first time in a while.

Their hooks are so deep that an hour and a half later I'm listing off all of the horrible things I'd enjoy them doing to me that I wouldn't have before we chatted (and justifying why it's okay not to take that away at the end of the scene), and half an hour after that I'm systematically dismantling my own defense mechanisms for them.

Best corruption top I've ever met.

#normal hypnosis content #bad ideas good stories #abuseplay #brainwashing

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Nap!

A witch that takes a nap!

She never takes a nap! Is she feeling tired? Well, she wouldn't be taking a nap if she wasn't feeling tired. Maybe she just... Didn't sleep well the night before!

Oh well! Her doll decides to take a nap with her!

She giggles a bit at the notion - and agrees!

A doll and witch in bed!

A good nap to both of them!♪

#the witch is dead isn't she #the doll just doesn't understand or hasn't noticed or is in denial

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*driving past a mcdonalds, hands tightening on the wheel*

I am not immune to propaganda but I am inoculated!!!!!!

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everyone say in the tags what their current custom discord status is

#DMs permanently open! #“The human brain is not designed to be a truth detector. It's designed to respond to stories- the more evocative the better.” #-*DAVID*- The Narcissist Cookbook