death-god-complexity

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SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT IP STOP FUCKING COMPLAINING no one cares

#Shut up #shutpuo

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God it’s so fucking embarrassing to be wrong.especially about urself

Like for the longest time I thought I had a personality disorder. I don’t, I do have personality issues and a loss of identity, but that’s due to trauma and shit not DID OR OSDD. I feel separate sometimes and can separate my child self from my own feelings, and sometimes as far as feeling separate from my work self, motherly self, and sportsman self, but that’s it. It’s not alters or anything and I may be forget ful but no amnesia. I was faking because I knew something was wrong and I made it worse

Same stuff with tics. I do twitch every once in a while, but I would exaggerate it

I’m diagnosed now with OCD, anxiety and depression , and it makes sense. It really does.

#yet it fucking doesn’t #i feel like there’s more #that I’m more messed up

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want to hurt myself so bad. I’m so tired but everytime I’m horny I want to cut … I just .. I don’t want to work, I don’t want to do school, I don’t want to do anything. I don’t want to not live, I just don’t feel like I can do what I want

#nobody is letting me

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started taking medicine . I know it ain’t a cure all but damn. I feel..remotely normal not anxious all the fucking time

#sheesh #to think I was suffering #i mean being nauseous is whatever #but #damn

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I FUCKING FAILED MY EXAM . I CANT STOP THINKINGABOUT IT BUT I HAVE TI MOVE ON BECAUSE IF I RUMINATE I WONT GET MY 8 aOther ASSIGNMENTS DONE

#I HARE EVERYTHING #I HATE IT #I CANT CUT T BECAUSNEIM AS STUPID BITCH THAT DOESNT BRING SCISSORD #FUCK

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Please boost this!

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God I need to do it so fucking bad . It’s like my skin si gonna burst I fee l like my body will explode I need it so bad. Is this what addiction feels like because I cannot handle it right now

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Please off me I fucking messed up he doesn’t love me anymore

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The urge to wear clothes that make me look too good and sexy and literally wear nothing and bend over to everyone and so I get raped and I have something to cry about

#tw fucked up #at school and debating on texting someone on tinder #just please I’m nothing #im not really traumatized I’m just a little pissbaby

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Lol kinda embarrassed . Told to wrap my pads . I use sainitary pads to soak up blood from cvtting lmao

#my stepmom is upset since I left it unwrapped #the urge to say that’s not from my ass it’s from my arm you idiot

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How the FUCK do you cut in the shape of a heart

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when you …..hurt urself and you c*m super hard after….:.::….

#nsftumblr #masochistic?

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I cvt my chest. Not like anyones gonna see that anyways. I’m sor overwhelmed I know I’ll be sent back no one is here for me

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The urge to cvt my own throat open

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want kill! want die!

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AHAHAHAHHH AHHHHA HHAHHA HH