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I don’t know who needs to hear this today, but intrusive thoughts are basically your brain’s (sometimes very upsetting) way of saying “If there were two guys on the moon and one of them killed the other with a rock would that be fucked up or what?”

I’ve personally found that adding the “would that be fucked or what?” part in myself really helps put the more disturbing thoughts we sometimes get into perspective. Helps me say “yeah thar sure would be fucked up” and move on with my day.

It’s not not a secret desire, it’s not something that only occurs to you because you’re a bad person. It’s just your brain deciding to process the fact that it knows an uncomfortable thing exists in the world by feeding it to you in an absurd “what if” with you as the main character.

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ah well, back to wanting to die

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Still really funny that Marvel named a movie “Endgame” and sold it as the final culmination of the MCU where they killed off two main characters and retired a third and then were shocked when people started loosing interest in the MCU after that

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google dot com how to explain to type moon fans that you cannot spoil a work that does not yet exist in any form

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saw a pigeon scratching itself with its foot like a doggie at the bus stop today. delightful

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old sword and sorcery stories are always like, “he crushed her body to his” and i love that. was “crushed” really the most romantic word you could come up with, robert? look what you did to this poor maiden. you crushed her

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I like full gloves a lot don’t get me wrong, but you remove any one piece of them, fingerless, half palm, backless etc and I go full cartoon wolf mode

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i'm so tired man

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god i really should just kill myself

i'm so fucking tired of being alive

every fucking thing goes wrong all the fucking time

and it doesn't matter how minor it is or how well i was doing before, i'll always want to die fucking immediately

surely at some point if you want something that much you should just fucking do it

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amazing how everyone is so much fucking stupider than me considering how much of an idiot i am

i hope everyone dies myself most of all

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damn my mood turned real bad real fast

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last few attempts to cook even simple foods have gone pretty bad

that's like one of the few skills i think i have any useful ability in

feels pretty bad

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Out of curiosity and also guilt over my own coffee intake. I wanna ask:

Now I'm not talking about when you're studying and so you drink 3x the usual amount or something like that. This isn't me asking what your record is. I'm talking about the most basic, average day, how many coffees you drink?

#0 but I just don't like the taste #and absolutely do get caffeine from elsewhere

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you know how it is with bodysuits

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being mutuals isn’t enough we need to eat breakfast in the garden together