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Crying (Taylor’s Version)

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capitalism is like. resting is a waste of time. eating is a waste of time. sleeping is a waste of time. playing is a waste of time. living is a waste of time. you must prove your worth to live here and everything else is a waste. and we’re taught not to question it. 

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broke: midsommar is a girl power movie

woke: midsommar is a horror movie about a manipulative cult

bespoke: midsommar is a litmus test to tell how easily you could be indoctrinated into a cult and if your first thought after watching it is that it was a girl power movie you’re very susceptible to cult tactics and you should be aware of that

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No I do not take constructive criticism

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being a woman in your early 20s is just *existential anxiety* *impulse purchase* *anxiety over being perceived* *desperate need to feel connected to others* *guilt for no reason*

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I am trying to remind myself that there is so much more ahead for me. This sadness is a moment in my life and it’s okay. I don’t have to be on the same timeline as everyone else. I’m in no rush. I know there is so more out there for me.

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kinda depressed that the better half of my 20s will be spent wading through the immediate effects/aftermath of a global pandemic

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being in your early twenties is like [grocery shopping alone] [having instant noodles for dinner] [remembering random details about that one friend you haven't spoken to in five years] [feeling overwhelming guilt for every purchase that isn't strictly "necessary"] [having midday naps] [finding out through facebook that the girl who was mean to you in high school has a husband and a baby] [falling a little in love with every stranger on public transport] [pretending you're not afraid of being alone] [wondering when you'll feel like a fully realized person] [listening to bands you liked in middle school] [blinking and it's suddenly december] [failing to imagine yourself ten years from now] [feeling like you're running out of time]

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if you're a student at all, please take care of yourself. you don't need to compete with your classmates for who slept the least or who drank the most coffee. eat breakfast and go to sleep a little earlier. lay off studying for a night and do something nice for yourself. your body and brain will thank you.

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pretty sunsets this week // 20/06 - 26/06

(1/∞)

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when your friends are talking about stuff you don’t understand but you still want to be part of the conversation

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