Knock knock
Death ya home?
Can you come pick me up?
I wanted to leave a long time ago and I been waiting so patiently for you. Iām ready when you are
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Love how everyone who asks me whatās wrong shortly after me telling them, tells me to āsnap out of itā or āknock it offā
Like ah shit never thought of that
Instead Iāve just felt the intense desire to fuckin kill myself and thatās my mistake for feeling like that. Iām so immature and pathetic. Iām so sorry.
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Well said
Oh shit, Iām rotting here in my room,
the fifth month of the year and I still have no strength.
If you walk past my house, youāll recognize by my music and the weed smell that itās me and yet Iām lying here,
still rotted here
i promise iām going to die
Ohh yeah
i have no motivation
hello depression
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That shit heavy
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Current mood: thinking about my drive home from work later with Five Degrees by lil peep on max volume and screaming every word. Itās my favorite song by him and it makes me feel less alone.
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I donāt even wanna talk anymore
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I wish I was the slightest bit confident. Just enough to hang out with people and not constantly feel like a burden, annoying, weird, or anything else. Every time I try to hype myself up to be myself around others I just end up wanting to go quiet in fear of pushing more people away. I am loneliness personified. These are the moments suicide flys around my head. Pretty much daily. The feeling of embarrassment the next day after an encounter that didnāt feel as though it went favorably is worse because it sticks in my head and I continue to hurt myself over it consistently till I once again run away to isolate where I further dwell on it. Iām terminally ill Iām realizing. This seems to be who I am and it doesnāt feel like itās ever gonna be different for any reason. I donāt even wanna interact with anyone today. It just hurts. Maybe id feel better if i cry. Let the emotion come out. What a great idea. If only I was capable of crying like I used to when I did so again almost every day. Now I canāt get tears out at all no matter what. Feels like Iām just nursing pain inside and feel it grow and grow and grow.
When does it end?
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Wake me up this way š„µš¤·
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sext
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i don't fucking know how i lived this long but i did. maybe i shouldn't have.
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Deleted all dating apps months ago, came crawling back with just one thought continuously floating around while swiping:
Am I seriously THAT repulsive that I never get any matches? On the off chance I do, I just get ghosted after one exchange? What am I doing wrong? This is kinda pathetic to be writing but idc. Say sum. Aināt shit you can say that I havenāt said a foot from the mirror. I just donāt understand dating. I seem to be the only one incapable of keeping any interest whatsoever and it hurts me every time I try despite how hard it is to try. I just donāt know how to give up, despite how much it hurts, I keep trying in some form. I care too much for this world.
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Imagine being in a nasty fight with someone close to youā¦..
Great now imagine that person is yourself
and it goes on everyday, for over 5 yearsā¦.
Idc about winning the fight anymore.
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āWell you have very good insight. Good self-awarenessā
-literally every therapist Iāve had
Like yea, thatās kinda the problem.
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I could reblog this multiple times a day. Heavy on this.
Iām so beyond tired of answering peopleās āare you okay?ā With a āšyepšš¼ā
Just once I wanna respond with a āno, I hate myself, Iām dissatisfied with this world and most people, and I feel so alone and Iām miserable and suicidal pretty much dailyā
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Iām so beyond tired of answering peopleās āare you okay?ā With a āšyepšš¼ā
Just once I wanna respond with a āno, I hate myself, Iām dissatisfied with this world and most people, and I feel so alone and Iām miserable and suicidal pretty much dailyā
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